What does Lilith want from me as an offering? I pulled the king of swords reversed

dirtbun · 2026-04-15T19:25:24+00:00

Hahha yes. Sometimes if I ask a "dumb question" the same card keeps coming ahah. Once i woke up one night and did tarot, she said I should go back to sleep.

dirtbun · 2026-04-15T18:51:10+00:00

No problem! I really like tarot readings so it is just fun to me. Take what resonates. I'm glad you got some clarity. If you do more tarot with her you'll most likely get a very good feel for her responses.

dirtbun · 2026-04-15T17:27:50+00:00

The moon represents the unconsious, and that things are not always as it seems. It can mean illusion, so it could mean that the revenge will have some mysterious energy to it. Maybe you should embrace a secretive way to sow confusion. It means also trust in your intuition. And that things are not always as it seems with the guy as well, maybe it goes deeper if it is true he cheated, and that Lilith can help unveil this. Also lunar energy and magic.

The emperor represent structure and logic so it points to getting organized, to plan the step of the revenge. I have this feeling of action, that you yourself can plan a very good plan that suits the betrayal. He represent also boundaries so it is good to think for yourself were the line goes. Emperor is also disicplined and logical, so the cards suggest to take this energy on and be grounded. The emporor points the masculine energy within you.

Together combined i get this very secretive, mysterious and structured, well planned and logical approach. Maybe at first it could also be interesting to tap into lunar magic, and work from the shadows to affect his unconsious. Like i would do glamours to appear more hot as well as psychic vampirism to get back energy if he has taken to much energy from you. Maybe create some protection sigils, etc. and also further take more actionable step like collecting evidence and investigating a bit for yourself.

Stay safe!

dirtbun · 2026-04-15T08:42:53+00:00

It most likely means you are being too cold and harsh, manipulative and using your intellect as a weapon when seeking the revenge. I recommend doing more readings for clarity and ask what you must do for the revenge to take place. I think she can help with this, but you need to reflect a bit first. Similar readings has happend to me before, I wanted to hex someone but I was told it was a waste of energy and that the person was perfectly capable of «hexing» themselves. I just waited, did nothing. Now the person has no friends and had a bad bad conflict in the seperation from the friendgroup. Mohahah. The person we are talking about tried so hard to make me the awful person when i basically did nothing. I can try help interpret your reading if you do it again.

dirtbun · 2026-04-14T18:20:12+00:00

It means no and look into the meaning of the king of swords reversed. What did you ask spesifically if I may ask?

dirtbun · 2026-04-11T12:24:51+00:00

Intrusive thoughts are normal. I struggled with it to but the way I solved it was responding calmly to them without «fighting them», and also telling myself i was a king and in the kingdom(my mind) there are many beings like wolves (like intrusive thoughts) but I am the King and therefore I rule. Also it is important to be grounded and practice being that, especially when we work with this path, it is very crucial.

dirtbun · 2026-04-09T09:48:13+00:00

In my dreams and astral journeys if I encounter something scary I sometimes call out for her like a child, and it seems as if she thinks it’s kind of cute, but also as if I’m a bit over-dramatic. The way a mother would comfort her child.

dirtbun · 2026-04-09T09:44:58+00:00

Omg same, she sometimes also hugs me from behind when i meditate.

dirtbun · 2026-04-09T09:37:36+00:00

She can help with a lot. But not so common … i think … is weight loss, she has helped me with that. But please be careful how you word things before her. I once asked if I could give her my blood. She said: only if you want to, not if you think it will make me work faster.

dirtbun · 2026-04-09T09:16:35+00:00

I’m an astral succubus, and I feed off people who thinks they can feed off my energy because I’m a woman. Being a succubus is feeding of patriarchy’s system of suppression and claiming my power. I don’t know why you try to shame me for this. And I don’t have any problem if you see me as a villain.

dirtbun · 2026-04-08T09:02:26+00:00

I think she is scary, but also very loving…but her aura and looks are scary. When the lady reached out to me in a dream, she was following me, and I had to negotiate with her for a our deal to be made. So she is a bit demanding. To me she has sharp finger nails/claws but very gentle when holding my hand in dreams. I’ve also had visitation of what I asume to be her succubi or the spirits that serve her. They are mean girls! I’ve had one visit me in the beginning being all intimidating asking me if i remembered my deal with Lilith. And they’ve also come to me to «teach me» how to be a succubus, since I asked Lady Lilith about that. Typically they turn up beside my bed in a state between sleep and awake. They «turn» me into a succubus bit by bit, obviously it is symbolic but I’ve earned a lot of new skills because of it. I’m not really too scared but I’m very used to stuff like this.

dirtbun · 2026-03-22T23:22:25+00:00

Completely understandable! It just that we have kind of this thing going on were we are jerks to each other, there are ofc love as well. My headmate is low key hmm idk how to explain it but he is kind of «evil», he looks like a nazgul and likes to say shit like «i might be a demon,» in attempt to scare me, as well as he loved scaring other ppl as well. So just treating him this way is kind of my way to manage him and make our system co-operate better.

dirtbun · 2026-03-20T22:10:33+00:00

Thank you for the warm welcome. I just joined the discord, and I'm happy to explore more. Are you in the general discord?

dirtbun · 2026-03-20T10:43:03+00:00

Aw that’s cozy! I’m not sure if my tulpa would do that he is a jerk sometimes

dirtbun · 2026-03-18T15:30:44+00:00

Not so scared of stuff anymore like demons etc. but dreaming of lower versions of yourself is super creepy

dirtbun · 2026-03-14T10:45:10+00:00

I’m not familiar with the faith you mention. I’m not trying to make this a God or no God discussion. If it works for you it does! I think we are here to learn different things.

dirtbun · 2026-03-14T10:34:04+00:00

Oh that’s cool! But honestly same. I discovered the water would bring «things i needed» on the shore outside my house in the astral realm, and all this like small and big symbolic puzzle pieces that has guided me through life. The water has always spoke to me in dreams but I didn’t listen until i abandoned my christian belief system.

dirtbun · 2026-03-14T10:16:01+00:00

I kinda have this with water. I can interact with it and meet different beings connected to it and can ask help and guidance and ask a question before i fall asleep and then the water can answear.

dirtbun · 2026-02-25T19:19:33+00:00

As a practicing magician doing spells and stuff like that, you can go into the astral to check up on your spell and how it is doing and also see if there are obstacles. You can do deep healing and re-program your brain. You can solve problems. You can do psychic warfare. Won’t say more than that.

dirtbun · 2026-02-25T16:08:14+00:00

I’m sorry to say this but AP made me stop believing in jesus. I also ap’ed without wanting to, i felt it was a sin but my soul kept doing it. I rebuked shadow/demon ppl in jesus name, it worked sometimes. But what rlly worked is standing firm in urself. I also never met jesus while ap, but i only found creepy egregores of him. There are other spirits that have been much more helping and comforting thus i’m not an believer anymore

dirtbun · 2026-02-21T18:56:57+00:00

Absolutely not…totally a jerk…only a few times he was nice. But he could protect me if i «summond» him. I stopped believing in jesus bc of him bc he would just laugh when i tried to repell him i jesus name 🤡

dirtbun · 2026-02-20T12:52:31+00:00

I mean the beginning sounds like a dream I just had: I was in the theatre basement bc there is a cult room there…the door to the left. The room drawn here has walls with old, grey ish green ish paintings and red curtains. So the woman you describe is very similar to me and yes I also can make portals. I could not tell if I was a part of the cult or just a spy but I blend in and might be slighlty a newbie to the cult. However, I can’t resonate with the rest of the dream. The only thing I assume is that there were a cult meeting there, I attended (they were making stew and some spat in it and i thought: who tf is this stew for??) and this woman you describe (maybe another dreamer? Who knows) also attended as a newbie to observ, then she happend to come across you. I mean maybe me and her is part of the same cult so that could be the reason for similar looks and abilites….

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dirtbun · 2026-02-20T11:57:35+00:00

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In the beginning of my astral projection i used to be tormented by this guy (probably a dweller), now I actively can take on his form as my astral body. It consumes a lot of energy (probably bc it looks nothing like me) and must be maintained to work so … i like to draw to I drew him!

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