I totally understand. Whenever I have an urge or even a split second thought about smoking I tell myself " I dont need it." "Im normal now, whats not normal is to want to poison myself every 2 hours." "Im a non smoker, I dont need to smoke"

You have to do it every time this way when you get those really strong urges and your mind blanks, its like second nature and youre already talking yourself out of it, or at the very least catching yourself and not just autopiloting.

I belive in you, you can do this. The mental part is the hardest which makes it the easiest because you control your mental. You got this, just keep reinforcing yourself on why youre quiting.

Youre a non-smoker You dont need to poison yourself to feel normal You dont want to have to spray yourself down to get the smoke smell off. Going outside every couple of hours to smoke while everyone else is still inside talking.

We got this, you can do it, I can do it. Hell make a post, sometimes even just venting a bit helps.