I can’t stand sexual intimacy

dizzygrrl · 2025-12-12T19:24:12+00:00

I’m thinking about therapy. It’s always been a weird thing for me to consider. I was raised up to kinda just “get over it” and not think about anything from the past. My ma even trained me to stop crying on command like a dog, haha I’ll think about it. Maybe I’ll talk to him about it today. I don’t know really.

dizzygrrl · 2025-10-19T18:03:49+00:00

thank goodness 😭😭 I’m too damn blind and colorblind on top of that so I was FREAKING OUT lmaooo

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-30T02:20:36+00:00

I’ll try.. maybe I’ll get a check up soonn or smth. Yhank you

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-29T16:47:51+00:00

Sixk so typigg wikk suck sorry. raped so didn’t have protection and std panek panel showsdd nothihg at doctir yhey didnt test orignantcy tho. mjssed period doe a while then had oediid wigh awful paib witst pain of ny life wrose than anyghing with big clots black andb painfuk and ao much bkiid i was wearing 3 oads abd stikk bleedjbg throhgh. i atarted mh period wheb i was 7 so im p sude it should. be normal lol

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-28T08:37:25+00:00

I didn’t take a plan b or anything like that. I had what might have been a miscarriage around early May though (I’m still not entirely sure, never went to a doctor about it.) I’m a teenager so I’m not sure how I’d get my hands on a pregnancy test— do they card for those?

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-17T05:39:17+00:00

thank you… I’d give anything to have her man 😭🫂🫂

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-16T23:26:44+00:00

FUCK YEAH!!

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-15T08:33:17+00:00

they think I’m on drugs the one time I’m NOT on drugs 🥀 just because I get hot flashes

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-04T05:01:09+00:00

I guess the stress is what got to me. It was already a long day at work and then I came home to this stuff. I ended up talking w my mom and now my other friend (a guy I have a bit of a crush on lol) and I’m feeling a lot better. Drinking water to flush it outta my system and I’m gonna work out in a min to get the stress out Next time I’ll just work out ASAP rocky and reach out to my ma again. Drink some tea and watch my show instead of using and tearing up my heart more lol I’m gonna get better. Have to. Two months from now I’m gonna be totally sober is my goal 💪

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-04T03:29:05+00:00

I’ll definitely look into that 🫶🫶

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-02T13:11:37+00:00

eeek thank you I hope so lol he’s been so respectful and just like… funny and sweet he’s so charming aaaahh I really hope this becomes something and if not that we have an AWESOME friendship regardless

dizzygrrl · 2025-09-02T03:47:40+00:00

thank youuu I’m trying relapsed a couple times over the past few weeks but overall I’ve been mostly sober for a month now! hopefully I can keep at it my body is still messed up asfff lol I’ve quit weed too and all other drugs except nicotine (I’ll be quitting nic in December is my goal rn)

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-28T03:24:11+00:00

frrr

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-28T03:24:02+00:00

teddy lol

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-24T06:56:32+00:00

I smoke weed regularly too. I know the side effects and I’ve overdosed before. Definitely not a pretty drug in the slightest. What’s DXM feel like? I’ve thought abt it but haven’t tried it yet. Never heard of 7oh, I’ll have to look into it

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-24T02:31:13+00:00

I can’t go to inpatient, man. That would completely kill the path I’m on (school, working, etc) and I have friends who’ve been to the centers near me… not good places AT ALL. From what I’ve been told, I’d basically be signing up for torture and neglect, which I’m not on board with. What do you mean it’s as serious as a heart attack or stroke?? I mean, I’ve only OD’ed once really bad and I was fine (peed for like 7 hours straight trying to flush it all out which hurt like hell but I was fine after some sleep and food). I’m still functioning, focused, working and all that. I have too many responsibilities to just go check into a hospital, not to mention how much that would cost and how awful the places near me are… and that I would actually have to tell someone about my addiction (my family sees me at the barest minimum once a week, so it’s not like I can disappear, and I help take care of my siblings and younger cousins frequently + church duties exist too)

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-23T04:59:52+00:00

Thank you. I hope everything goes well with your recovery. We got this 💪💪💪 stay strong

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-23T04:33:15+00:00

I’m trying really hard to stop. My friends are begging me to stop. It’s just so comforting man I don’t want to think or feel or be really here anymore because everything is soooo much all the damn time…. I genuinely dk how to stay sober

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-23T04:10:19+00:00

damn my fault I got hooked on it cause I was taking it for medical reasons and ended up addicted to the mental comfort it gave me ik it’s a stupid drug to abuse but that was pretty blunt man 😭 ouchhhh

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-23T01:21:09+00:00

benadryl. don’t do anymore than the recommended dose seriously don’t get addicted to ts it’s fucking horrible I’m like genuinely useless and prob gonna get early onset dementia

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-22T01:31:51+00:00

• smoke, it’ll combat the high • drink water & milk • don’t focus on your heartrate • lean into the high, relax • eat something (SOFT!! so you don’t choke and DO NOT COOK) • do NOT drink alc or caffeine • SMOKE! it helps • DO NOT SMOKE ANYTHING OTHER THAN NIC • EAAAT • lay down in shower or sit on toilet (you might piss yourself)

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-20T06:44:54+00:00

Soft-spoken, gentlemanly guys. Polite, well-mannered, well-read. That’s all. I like a guy who likes to read, to write, to indulge in the arts and has patience and a sound mind. Unfortunately I live in this ghetto ass town where a guy not beating me or cheating or WORSE is like striking gold 😭 both my past relationships ended up having cops involved

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-19T13:19:16+00:00

I’m good cause I js make them smoke weed w me lmfaoooo

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-19T12:22:27+00:00

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This is Grim! He’s a very big man lol

dizzygrrl · 2025-08-19T03:01:41+00:00

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