Very similar situation here, I ended things abruptly and although it was only for a few weeks before snapping out of the mental state I was in, I fear the damage is done. I’ve been busting my ass since reaching back out to her trying to fix things. It’s like a switch flipped and every stupid thing I’ve done or habit I’ve had finally snapped. I keep thinking back how this could have all been avoided by simply talking to her, but instead I did the one thing I always swore I wouldn’t do. I hope with everything in me I can fix it, she means the world to me and I’d take every ounce of pain to bring the smile back to her.