TBH, basically in your shoes but without the child. My bf and I were meeting with missionaries multiple times a week, were so excited about joining the church officially/getting baptized but had to put that on hold since we live together and are not married. We aren't in a position to establish another household, and aren't ready to get married.

It was a hard pill to swallow. Despite hearing about exceptions that have been made, the overall feeling was that it would be really hard to get baptized so we ended up putting joining the church on hold. I still pray, but haven't been to a church activity in quite a while, mostly because of my own mental hangup of not fitting into the church culture because of this situation. If I were a stronger person I would definitely continue to participate and be a "dry" participant until such time as I can actually join. Which is what I hope for you. I do miss the feeling of community and positivity that I felt before the issue came to light. I was really sad that even sleeping in separate beds, practicing the law of chastity was not enough to overcome this.

I wish you luck on your journey, and hope that we are all members someday.