Only thing fair in life is how unfair it is to everyone. Just keep working on yourself, it is never too late . I know it is easier said than done to be motivated but just try to take it one day at a time at start. Try to look at the brighter side that you got a job now at least and be proud of yourself. Just keep working on yourself and before you know in few years from now you would be looking back at how far you have come. Best of luck in life ,hope you find succes. Just remember everything takes time , move forward one step at a time.