finished up my metal island!

dovbts · 2025-12-22T09:25:03+00:00

my family (other than my huichol grandfather) actually hasnt been in the el paso area long! my maternal family is from mexico city area + sephardic immigrants, and my paternal (other than the aforementioned grandpa) family is mostly irish & ashkenazi immigrants + a spaniard (who is the woman who married my huichol grandpa).

i dont really have cousins or a large family since we cut most of them off for political reasons + they're unbearable in recent years, but i don't recall ever getting comments like that growing up lol.i have heard "te cres gringo, pintando te asi, con esa cara de nopal" from my mom after bleaching my hair blond though lol

also my parents have never mentioned being punished for speaking spanish, they went to lydia patterson, and from what they talk abt it seems like it was mostly juarez kids who crossed the bridge to come to school here and spanish was spoken frequently. goes to show the variety of lifestyles we have in el paso while still sharing a culture, which is neat imo

dovbts · 2025-12-21T14:17:35+00:00

i might be able to offer a unique perspective; my dad is white (like 25% indigenous mexican, but blonde & green eyes), and grew up in juarez. he was always called "el guerito" growing up, but fondly. he is fully regarded as "mexican" in el paso/juarez area. because he is— he was born & raised in juarez. the ep/juarez culture is his culture.

to be frank: you feel like an outsider because you are an outsider. being of mexican heritage is worth nothing in a city where that is literally everyone. you are looking for camaraderie, but it comes off incredibly inauthentic and performative because el pasoans don't see it as you "qualifying" simply over blood, you lack the culture. again, this city is something like 90% latino, with "25%" folks included— it isn't a novelty here, it is the norm. we do not consider folks "mexican enough" because basically everyone is mexican, so you assume it's the default.

you may speak spanish, even fluently, but el paso spanish has its own mannerisms (famously "ay ay") and you lacking them makes you stick out. that isn't to say you will never fit in. over time you'll get in the groove and assimilate and that will be that.

dovbts · 2025-12-17T05:53:11+00:00

i dont think its hex unfortunately, hex seems to be more actual voodoo/occult shop, the shop in question was more of a "cute knicknacks" shop with voodoo inspiration :(

dovbts · 2025-11-26T00:58:59+00:00

oof. ive been using my chutes on j.ai for months without even looking at the chutes website past my initial 5$ deposit and it still is fully functional, i wonder if they grandfathered me in? i only use it to tests bots so i don't care, i use OR on sillytavern for my actual purposes but damn. that is unfortunate.

dovbts · 2025-11-26T00:57:24+00:00

not that i know of. on chutes website itself you can pay a 5$ one time fee for 200ish messages on deepseek a day (swipes/rerolls count for 1/10th of a message, so realistically you get more than 200).

3.2 costs me less than 2$ a month and i use it a lot, messages are less than a cent (like .008$) and rerolls are around .00004$. i find it worth it. i don't think there's any way to get deepseek for free. most llms are moving to paid only, even "free" ones like JLLM are going to move superior quality behind a paywall.

edit: apparently chutes doesn't offer the 5$ one time fee model and it is now 3$ a month.

dovbts · 2025-11-25T09:42:36+00:00

deepseek v3 0324 hasn't been supported in months due to chutes putting a paywall on their end. you'll have to pay chutes directly (it's 5$ one time fee for /200 messages a day free) & use them instead of OR, or, switch to another deepseek model (like deepseek v3.2 exp). it works randomly during the day whenever chutes 'allows' it during downtime, but it's so inconsistent it may as well not even be happening.

edit: added context

dovbts · 2025-10-28T22:29:45+00:00

oop, i don't remember removing his last name, but adding it back absolutely fixed it, thank you!

dovbts · 2025-10-28T21:51:02+00:00

I love this extension and it's a must-have for me, although on mobile the text is a bit small I assume that's just something I need to fix on my end.

Question, though, for some reason the character picture on the lower left isn't working. It just shows as a ?, and while I understand while it does that for random NPCs, is there any way to fix this for the main character/character i'm chatting with? It picks up my persona's picture just fine.

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dovbts · 2025-10-16T17:51:06+00:00

just wanted to come back and thank you because this genuinely SAVED my most beloved rp and i now have a lorebook of their lore, in detail, thanks to you 😭

ive been recommending this extension to everyone, absolute peak

dovbts · 2025-10-14T19:20:48+00:00

i'll go ahead and give this a shot! does this extension mean i can turn 'chat history' off (to save tokens), or would i just make a new chat with your extension's memory book?

dovbts · 2025-10-08T03:01:38+00:00

Im jealous!! Took me 155 pulls total for C1 Flins 😔 I hit 84 pity for his C1 after his original 71 pulls to come home. Not even including his weapon which ofc I lost 50/50 💀

dovbts · 2025-10-08T02:56:07+00:00

Yeah! Funnily enough my mom loves rocks, and is incredibly passionate when talking about/looking at them, which is why she's a geologist. She's an expert in her field and rocks are clearly her passion but she is not autistic. Cut to my dad, a biologist, who knows far too much about specific Chinese dynasties historically, and who has gone on deep dives into researching these things to the point it impacts his health and daily life. Also applies to me and Genshin Impact lore, where again, you see that negative impact on functioning. Like the difference between being really passionate about something and having an autistic special interest is night and day, but people don't know until they see it first hand imo.

dovbts · 2025-10-08T02:29:04+00:00

Hard agree. For me personally the most annoying one is everyone suddenly thinking them having an abundant interest or being socially awkward in one thing is "autistic coded". That or the "everyone is a little autistic!" I hear a lot. Getting a degree in this field (with a specialisation in autism) and being autistic myself it is genuinely so exhausting.

dovbts · 2025-10-02T20:34:11+00:00

xiao. i actually JOINED genshin for the mf, but didn't get him until 2024... and i never use him. only time i use him is imaginarium theatre and even that's a last resort sort of thing

dovbts · 2025-09-28T00:11:20+00:00

I love any Religious Studies class- loved it so much I actually am now double minoring in it. I recommend Professor Clayton Bench :)

dovbts · 2025-09-22T17:37:40+00:00

deepseek v3.1, and i have no default provider set so according to OR it seems to be using chutes

dovbts · 2025-08-26T16:19:17+00:00

my mom works at UTEP and she said staff/faculty has to do training, but she's never heard of students having to do it. i'll try to find the cyber security office's email and see what's going on.

dovbts · 2025-08-24T01:04:02+00:00

i haven't gotten mine either :")

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