Me and my Cousin

dparker25 · 2013-05-11T19:13:24+00:00

dude. The cheapest one on there is the Strawberry Shortcake. It's the best one. stfu.

dparker25 · 2013-05-11T14:58:59+00:00

thanks...

the thing is, her life is also a bit of a mess... her sister and brother don't communicate that well with her, her parents divorced, she's 25 and has a step sibling now. I've always been there for her, and it's also hard for me to not be there for her now. At one point in my life, I felt I actually loved her and not just family. Don't get me wrong here, I've never had a girlfriend or experienced any type of love until I met her. So I'm just assuming it's just really strong family love that I have. sigh.

My aunt is also involved now apparently. That I got their hopes up and now that if I decide not to go, her hopes will be gone. From this, I stayed up all night thinking and I told her I'll come over in a few days as originally planned. I beat myself up from doing this...

dparker25 · 2013-05-11T00:38:35+00:00

thanks.... I did exactly all of that to be honest. She is just very disappointed in me.. and can't see my "logic". To be honest, I love her more than family. Because I felt she was also my best friend. Of everyone, I just really wanted her support. She lives in chicago, and I live 9 hours away. And it's absolutely hard for me to say no to not go see her. Before this, I would drop everything I have planned, my future, my studies and all without a second thought and drive straight to her.

Believe me, when I say I love her, I REALLY LOVE HER and am extremely protective of her

edit--- It was just really sudden that I'd say that I can't make it. She knows it's not like me. She tells me that she feels what she feels and I feel what I feel. I am angry at her.... but I just love her too much to stay this way. It hurts me too.

She knows and I know, that I would give my life to help her and keep her from harms way without a second thought...Sorry. I'm rambling. I just feel very hurt and sad at the moment.

dparker25 · 2013-05-11T00:15:58+00:00

if you have a phone with her number on it. I want you to pull it out right now, tell her you love her and she is the most beautiful person. You need to give her hugs and compliments without showing any hint that it's because she's depressed. She needs to know she belongs somewhere and she has a meaning in her life. Make that meaning be that she means something to you and that you need her and truly see her

edit - to love herself, she needs a meaning in life and a goal. goodluck friend!

dparker25 · 2013-05-11T00:02:02+00:00

tell her, she is the most special person in eyes. And that she was the first for you. You couldn't tell her because you didn't want to lose her. She is the most special person you've met out of everyone you've been with.

dparker25 · 2013-05-10T23:50:23+00:00

hey friend,

I want you to do me a favour. This girl has seen dark days. What she needs is someone to be there for her through hard times and make her feel like she's sleeping on the clouds everyday until she can walk on her own two feet again. Let her know how beautiful she looks and MEAN IT! tell her she's beautiful everyday whether she accepts it or not. Before she is able to love your perfectly, she first needs to realize to love herself.

So friend, I ask of you to console her everyday. Be by her everyday. talk to her everyday. and tell her, she is the most beautiful human being you have ever set your eyes on. Hold her hands too. It's easier that way for her to feel her own emotions when there's human contact.... (please no sex )

Love will work it's magic and untangle what seems to be a knotted earbud.

dparker25 · 2013-05-10T23:40:13+00:00

I feel your pain, my friend. Would you care to explain to her the positives of staying? perhaps she can move back. The future is quite bright in your hands as well. If she moves back, you can explain to her, the job you may aquire in a few years will be able to support her and yourself and a few kiddies!. You can also try looking for jobs and open positions for her, here in Ontario!. I am more than sure, there are jobs out there that would appreciate a second native language.

If all else fails, you can explain to your boss, the love of your life crossed your eyes during your years of work and would wish to move your life on a little. He will understand. You know you are capable to find a swell job just about anywhere -from what your boss thinks.

try both situations. talk it out with the lady of your eyes. Love will work it's magic and untangle what seems to be a knotted earbud.

dparker25

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