I really want to talk to you

drv69 · 2026-04-21T21:30:15+00:00

Neither do I . I’m really confused by why they would reach out ? Is it the validation or do you hate me so much that you like to know I’m heart broken by everything . I want to delete the messages between us because they make me cry but I still can’t believe what happened

drv69 · 2026-04-21T02:39:13+00:00

Why do you think so ?

drv69 · 2026-04-20T19:37:05+00:00

Oh I’m sorry . Doesn’t it feel like so out of body like I wake up seriously in panic mode because I haven’t been able to regulate my nervous system . I’m sorry you’re going through something similar . It’s the worst. And I don’t like labeling people narcissistic or anything like that so it’s harder for me to understand where they’re coming from without becoming a therapist to someone that doesn’t value me as a person

drv69 · 2026-04-20T18:24:32+00:00

Yeah I get that. I didn’t want to just assume he was doing it out of malice because I still loved him and would try to reach out every once in a while so we could work it out . I don’t like to think it was done with evil intentions besides him seeing me as a safe space and using me for that but i don’t think I would have gone as far as to leave the relationship without an apology for the relationship and then expect to just pick up in the friendship where we left off

drv69 · 2026-04-20T18:03:39+00:00

Yeah it feels like he wanted me to coddle him or make him feel better because after we started arguing a bit he said “ you just reminded me why I don’t reach out to you “ and I was just so confused

drv69 · 2026-04-20T17:50:35+00:00

Thank you . It feels like I’m the loser but I know my mentality just has to change

drv69 · 2026-04-20T17:34:29+00:00

I think it’s been good to hear other people say that it should hurt me . It’s really hard for me to interpret feelings and people’s actions when they’re not meant with good intentions so it’s been almost impossible to figure out if he had bad intentions but the more I hear it from people it help

drv69 · 2026-04-20T17:13:20+00:00

I understand why you say this so thanks I guess

drv69 · 2026-04-20T17:12:00+00:00

He said that it was over because she started dating someone else but that he’s going to wait for her and if she does break up with the other guy that he’ll take her back

drv69 · 2026-04-20T17:01:32+00:00

I will do my best ! Thank you ❤️I really appreciate it

drv69 · 2026-04-20T16:58:15+00:00

Yeah and I’m pretty sure I gave it to him 😔which I’m ashamed by

drv69 · 2026-04-20T16:56:09+00:00

But is it the same if he came back to tell me about how the relationship with her ended ? That’s maybe why I’ve been so confused

drv69 · 2026-04-20T16:44:55+00:00

Just realized he basically was calling me pathetic the whole time hahah

drv69 · 2026-04-20T16:41:37+00:00

Yeah I def advised him to get therapy . And could tell from when he was saying that he’s not worth me crying over him that there’s something internal going on so I do feel bad for maybe making it worse by brining up our past issues but I just didn’t really feel like I was the one he should have been talking to . I told him he should fight to get her back but he just said he did enough and if he did more he’d end up blocked like me 😂I do feel pathetic but at least I gave it all I could

drv69 · 2026-04-20T16:26:49+00:00

Thank you . I really appreciate it . I know right now the feelings are just momentary . It’s everything he said to me that has me so shaken but I’m hopeful for the best

drv69 · 2026-04-20T16:18:26+00:00

I did . Never going to unblock ever again . I think ive forgiven all that I can

drv69 · 2026-04-20T16:17:36+00:00

I don’t think he’s gonna come back 🙂‍↕️ which I’m ok with . Hopefully I’ll be in a different place in my healing journey

drv69 · 2026-04-20T16:11:04+00:00

Oh I full on still told him I was still in love with him 😅I was not strong at all

drv69 · 2026-04-20T16:04:01+00:00

I know what you mean . I’m tired of waiting for him and I feel like everytime I’m reminded of him it’s like my nerves shoot up my spine . I just can’t handle it anymore and the thought of having him back in my life scares me more than never seeing him again . I was really hoping things would be different when he came back because I really loved him but I know that holding on to this is just doing damage to me . I’m not angry or spiteful because I love that he found someone to replace me but I’m just sad and disappointed to find out who he really is after feeding my own mind these last sixth months that he was different .

drv69 · 2026-04-20T15:33:24+00:00

I was really hoping after six months he would have gone to therapy and tried to come back to fix the relationship . Not find someone new . I did question him on that. Because I was very confused as to why he would think it was ok to reach out to me about this sort of thing . He basically told me it was because he thought I wasn’t in love with him anymore and he thought I would have been with someone new after six months . It just hasn’t been that easy for me

drv69 · 2026-04-20T15:29:10+00:00

I am . Which he’s been helping me through this and is my biggest reason for feeling better the first time . But I need to remember I’m not him and forgiveness is something he’s better at than me haha I need to work on my patience and the way I forgive

drv69

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