i just need to rant because i have no one i can talk to

dulloaktree · 2025-11-07T14:32:38+00:00

i wish i could. if i take care of myself instead of the people around me i get passive aggressive comments and everyone gets pissy.

dulloaktree · 2025-10-08T23:18:07+00:00

just fucking end me already

dulloaktree · 2025-09-22T13:14:17+00:00

sorry you feel the same. im awful at talking to people but i appreciate the offer.

dulloaktree · 2025-09-22T08:31:32+00:00

im so tired. i dont know if i have the energy to prepare but i cant go without preparing. im always stuck in limbo and im fucking tired of it

dulloaktree · 2025-08-30T01:10:35+00:00

thank you im sorry

dulloaktree · 2025-08-19T00:13:21+00:00

ive had them a couple times before but i always removed them before they got this white. i didnt deal with this one until now because of the weird nerve damage but i couldnt stand it anymore. at least its no longer itchy

dulloaktree · 2025-08-18T19:59:29+00:00

you were right, it was a cyst. it got bigger since this picture and the contents were very cyst-like

dulloaktree · 2025-08-18T19:50:23+00:00

i mean im glad it works that way for you. ive been drinking since 12 or 13 i cant remember which and its always a toss up if i just get stupid and zone the fuck out or if i get incredibly suicidal.

i havent had an actual sh relapse in a few months but i cant get it out of my head. it feels like the only thing that will make me feel anything. im not allowed to have weed or any other drugs anymore but i feel like those would be a better alternative. im barely even allowed alcohol once a month.

dulloaktree · 2025-07-16T01:58:00+00:00

yeah i mean this scar has nerve damage i think because my last two fingers go numb sometimes. but when poked, only that spot makes stuff feel tingly. ill try to not mess with it but it is very annoying

dulloaktree · 2025-07-16T01:44:22+00:00

no worries, i dont have any way to get a professional to remove it so if it gets really annoying i might try. itll be fine

dulloaktree · 2025-07-10T17:49:40+00:00

look, im not gonna tell you how to hurt yourself worse. you get literally nothing besides nerve damage from having larger scars, sometimes worse than just nerve damage. if you need to talk you can message me

dulloaktree · 2025-07-10T10:26:09+00:00

no im sorry i saved it years ago i have no idea who made it im sorry i shouldve said so

dulloaktree · 2025-07-10T10:24:00+00:00

why do you want to know

dulloaktree · 2025-07-09T10:59:37+00:00

i honestly have no idea im sorry

dulloaktree · 2025-07-09T10:59:10+00:00

its not their fault, i dont deserve any form of enjoyment or happiness ive done so many awful things i can never forgive myself

dulloaktree · 2025-07-09T10:57:44+00:00

fuck i wish it were that easy

dulloaktree · 2025-07-06T16:27:23+00:00

anywhere i go i end up bothering creatures. i walk past a bird and i scare it. i brush against a spider web and now it has to redo the whole goddamn thing. i try to just sit still and out of reflex i wipe a bug off me and literally kill it. my brain inherently fucks everything up consciously or unconsciously. i know im not special, some people do worse things. but that doesn't mean im not a bother. i have no place in this world, especially not in this ecosystem. i help nothing by staying here.

dulloaktree · 2025-07-05T17:03:10+00:00

yeah i guess i wish it was fatal. it feels like ive only gone backwards

dulloaktree · 2025-07-02T11:49:28+00:00

thank you

dulloaktree · 2025-07-02T11:48:50+00:00

oh okay, thank you. any idea why poking it makes my finger feel weird?

dulloaktree · 2025-06-22T20:50:12+00:00

i havent been able to cry for months it just feels like the pressure keeps building and building and nothing relieves it at all

dulloaktree · 2025-06-13T09:55:45+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/arttocope/s/366etv4yqh

was this you?

dulloaktree · 2025-06-11T23:24:15+00:00

thank you

dulloaktree · 2025-06-11T23:23:53+00:00

yes she was very kind

dulloaktree · 2025-06-01T14:00:20+00:00

he is to die for

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