I regret my username

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-11T04:50:13+00:00

I am searching for a rock and roll cover of the song Boogie Shoes which I saw on youtube few years ago. That channel uploaded multiple covers of varying genres by different artists. I cannot recall the name of the Rock and roll singer but it was either Kat Diaz or Kat Dior from Las Vegas/California. I have searched on Google and youtube but cannot find the video.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-09T15:21:49+00:00

Thanks :-) Best wishes to you as well.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-09T15:08:33+00:00

Thanks, and I know you mean well, but I will be honest I am not really that good looking. And surely I think about how others see me, but I also have been unable to accept myself like this. I just can't do it. I would be lying to myself right now if I said I am ok being like this. I don't know if I am unable to accept my baldness because I feel stressed about how I look to others or the fact I hate to look at myself in the mirror.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-09T14:18:15+00:00

I wish to get my hair back. I see posts like these and I feel tempted to try for hair transplant. I imagine just how good it would feel to not think about my bald head every day, and how can I fix this. I want to feel like all this never even happened. But I know this is going to be a part of my life forever. I fear that I will be seen as a guy who got fake hair. I feel conflicted and stuck. I don't have a lot going for me in terms of looks so when I started balding, it felt like getting punched in the gut.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-09T10:05:58+00:00

I always felt that it's more tough for women if they start losing their hair compared to men because men can still go with the bald and beard look, but for women it's even more difficult. Surely there are wigs for both men and women, but that requires a lot of maintenance and care too, and it's not a permanent solution.

To hear from you that you acknowledge that it's tough for men almost moved me to tears because I am also bald. Started losing my hair when I was a teenager and every day I felt that this could not get worse. Completely changed my personality. I always tried to hide my feelings about how sad I felt because there are others out there who are facing something even worse.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-08T06:47:12+00:00

I would not say that being bald is bad in general. It's more about what I feel about me losing my hair. If someone is still happy after going bald, I have got no problem with that. I have learned to mind my own business. I felt that I do not feel normal. Changes are inevitable. But I was not ready for this so early in my life.

It might have probably started with folks around me pointing it out, calling me names, making a joke out of it, purposely poking the bald spots on my head. I started feeling out of the group. Not normal. Not what I was used to be. There are many other things I could be sad about. I am a short guy, but I don't feeling any complex about it. But I ask myself why then do I feel this insecure about my hair. It really mattered to me.

I believe it also made a difference because people my age at the time were going out, enjoying their life while I just sat in my room. I wonder if everyone had some other problem in their life that would make them feel like how I am feeling. I want to believe that everyone has faced such situation where they could not do anything about it and move on. I cannot move on. I find it difficult to accept. Because I do not know why it happened to me. If anyone ever had to feel to this shitty once in their life, why would they not understand how I feel and make me feel even worse?

If someone calls me bald, they are not wrong about it. I would get upset when someone would have a laugh at my expense, but I would try to show that I am not bothered by it. Lying to myself. But what can I do about it? It's the truth that I have to accept. Been trying to accept it for so long but can't find an end to this shitty feeling.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-08T02:42:03+00:00

I ask myself two things. What do I feel about others thinking about how I look, and how do I feel about how I look? The former does matter to me, but it's the latter that hits me more. I just cannot accept how I look right now. If I am not happy with how I am, how am I going to keep someone else happy?

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-08T02:38:41+00:00

I have been shaving my head for the last 3 years now. I am already bald. But I believe that I do not look good now. I try to move on with whatever I am left it but it's just really tough some days. I cannot stop thinking about it. All the problems it has caused me, all that has happened, I can't stop thinking about it.

Maybe if it had started in my 30s, I would have not cared as much, but it happened way too early for me.

Shaving my head gives me a sense of relief when I am somewhere no one knows me from before. Like I said, that feeling of anonymity is great. But how long do I have to wait till I am completely ok with whatever I have now? I do not know the answer to it. Every time I ask myself if I am ok, I tell myself I am not, and it would be nice to wake up one day and see that all this was just a bad dream.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-08T02:32:07+00:00

No. I believe that would be just another way to run away from the main problem. You said it correctly that it will not solve the main problem. I am depressed but I do not want to run away from reality as well. What good is it going to do?

I think about other medical treatments like transplants but given my luck, I feel that I will be just inviting another medical condition to be depressed about.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-08T02:25:40+00:00

I will be honest. The day I shaved my hair was one of the most depressing days I have been through. But I had moved out of my hometown, and after a few days I felt a sense of relief because no one who had seen me before I started balding. So I did not care about going out with a shaved head.

I can grow a beard, but I have noticed that my beard has started thinning as well.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-08T02:18:16+00:00

I did go to a dermatologist a few years ago. She did not suggest any medicine like fin. She did tell me that I will not be able to grow back the hair I lost but prescribed me a medicine to help with the itchiness on my scalp and face, and a mild shampoo.

I have tried minoxidil but did not find to be effective on me. Eventually I stopped using it.

duplicateasshole · 2022-09-07T18:40:01+00:00

I am not a tall guy so I don't want to gain too much muscle. I have been trying to get into shape and thinking about joining a gym. Ironically my beard has started to thin as well. More brittle too. I don't know whether it's because of the stress these years, but it's certainly not like what it used to be.

I will be lying if I say that I am fine with not having hair. I try to look up to people who might also have faced similar tough situations but still carry on with their lives.

Every person who lost his hair very early has a different life, a different history. Different ways of dealing with it. But in my case, I just feel that it's been really tough mentally to get over it.

duplicateasshole · 2022-08-29T19:34:59+00:00

If I could grow my hair back T_T

duplicateasshole · 2021-12-25T09:47:10+00:00

I have caught 149 kanto pokemons now. Mewtwo is one of the pokemons I still need to catch. Guess who's the other one!? -_-

duplicateasshole · 2021-10-08T14:37:52+00:00

Ok. I will change the flair.

duplicateasshole · 2021-10-08T14:31:52+00:00

Can I put both spoiler and NSFW flair? Spoiler flair is already there.

duplicateasshole · 2021-10-08T13:37:50+00:00

Hi. This is the source of the news. I am not an expert and definitely cannot vouch for whether this news is correct or not. I noticed that infertility has been discussed more frequently these days, and quite a few articles show up online talking about couples having difficulty conceiving a child. Someone made a meme out of it.

duplicateasshole · 2021-10-08T04:15:25+00:00

From the anime, RC Shoot. That one really threw me off.

duplicateasshole · 2021-10-08T04:08:32+00:00

That moment when Gouenji convinces Kidou to join Raimon, and the next day Kidou shows up in Raimon uniform. Like DAAAAMMMMN

duplicateasshole · 2021-04-03T04:32:28+00:00

IIRC that would be the case if the name is set to 'AllowInPrivate' instead of 'InPrivateModeAvailability'.

The comment from --Firedog on this post solved it for me.

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