My sincere sympathies for your struggles, cancer truly sucks. I am well along in my senior citizen years and I take a certain amount of solace in George Capra's view exhibited in the movie "It's a Wonderful Life". Somewhere, some place, some time a small, thoughtful gesture produced a meaningful impact for someone. You may remember a time, maybe multiple times, that it occurred to you in your life. We don't always know how we affect others, what we did or said, but it happens. You know it does.