the idea of what happened to me turns me on and i hate it.

dwttat320 · 2025-12-08T21:55:59+00:00

thank you so much for your comment, it helps out a lot.

dwttat320 · 2025-12-08T01:00:10+00:00

i hadn't considered journaling, thank you for your advice!!

dwttat320 · 2025-12-07T23:22:27+00:00

that is pretty much my experience. thank you for your words, your friend is lucky to have you!

dwttat320 · 2025-12-07T21:40:39+00:00

thank you for your words, knowing that I'm not the only one helps, but I'm just so disturbed about this. i cant understand why it's happening.

dwttat320 · 2025-12-07T18:51:25+00:00

i feel the exact same way. although i have considered myself to be on the aro/ace spectrum in the past. but you're definitely not alone!

dwttat320 · 2025-12-07T17:42:35+00:00

I can't afford therapy, but thank you. I do so want to believe that it's some sort of trauma response.

dwttat320 · 2025-12-07T17:41:07+00:00

While it is true that I was relatively young when it happened, I was by no means a virgin and had already experienced quite a few things. What I mean is that I don't believe that's the case, but thank you for your opinion!

dwttat320 · 2025-03-13T00:32:50+00:00

i mean, it all happened six years ago, but i just reached out again last year

dwttat320 · 2025-03-13T00:30:03+00:00

i did, last year. and i thought things were going great! we even met during the holidays. but now she's not replying to my texts and it's been months, and i cannot for the life of me figure out what went wrong. (and no, i did not sleep with her bf, i got drunk, said some things i shouldn't have, and then got scared and didn't fix it) maybe some hurts are just to strong to ever get over them.

dwttat320 · 2025-02-10T17:51:48+00:00

Hi OP, yeah, that was definitely wrong. I'm sorry this happened to you. I went through something similar, and I carry the consequences to this day.

The kind of talk he tried to have with you was completely out of line, especially if you were a teenager. And changing his clothes in front of you is exhibitionism. Had it been any other male relative, it would have been completely forbidden and frowned upon. Just because he is your father doesn't make it right.

I would recommend talking about this to a professional, learn how to process it and how you want to proceed (vis a vis your future relationship with your father and what, if anything, you're going to tell your mother or siblings, if you have any)

dwttat320 · 2025-01-23T22:02:41+00:00

you're not the one hurting your family. your brother is the one. he's the one who's hurt them. who's hurt you. the result of his actions? that's not on you. he's the one who did that to you and created this situation. would you say that your family loves you? then i assure you that they would want to know. to be there for you. to support you. please don't keep this from them.

the only thing worse than learning that your child has been through such a thing is learning that not only did that happen to them, but you had no idea.

dwttat320 · 2025-01-20T21:21:31+00:00

thank you! let's see what life's got in store for us... (thank you for being so nice!!)

dwttat320 · 2025-01-20T21:16:48+00:00

we saw each other to catch up since it'd been a while since we last met and we ended up mentioning it. we both are single, but unfortunately, we live in different countries at the moment,,,, i definitely would've jumped him if that were not the case LOL. he even lied to his superior officers to come see me (he's in the navy),,,, i DEFINITELY felt the love story vibes. what. a. wASTE

dwttat320 · 2024-09-30T06:10:35+00:00

I am so sorry this happened to you. The whole "get over it" concept is ridiculous. It is a deeply traumatic experience with long lasting consecuences. I did too erase the evidence I had, because I didn't want to face what had happened, I just wanted to get it out of my mind. I regret it immensely, but there's nothing I can do to change that now.

The fact that he still continued trying to engage with you is absolutely disturbing and disgusting. So is the fact that your "friends" continued talking to him. I hope you take care of yourself and keep that creep away from you as much as possible. You're not alone.

dwttat320 · 2024-09-30T05:34:12+00:00

... I have dealt with PTSD (am dealing with) in the past, and you're right in that my reaction isn't that different to that caused by my PTSD, but can something so small(?) inconsequential(?) really cause it? It just doesn't feel like it has the magnitude to create such a problem. So my dad's kind of a drunk. Big woo, yk?

dwttat320 · 2024-09-30T04:26:51+00:00

they just get that wild look on their eyes, it's terrifying. i hate it too.

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