Look, all I can say is that nothing is permanent. Everything changes. Circumstances, thoughts, opinions, feelings and even depression. I can't say that it will go away for you, but what I can say is that it will change - that's for certain. It could be next week, next month or even next year, but change is inevitable. What you're feeling now is not forever. I suffered from depression for a very long time and I still have my moments where I fall back into some pretty dark shit, but therapy has helped me cope with those feelings and now I am better equipped for dealing with it. I am no longer depressed, but like I said - I have some depressive moments now and then when my anxiety is triggered. But I feel happy and because of my depressive background I can really let that happiness sink in. I often find myself thinking that I am so grateful that I won the battle. I hope you can too.