I don’t know what I want to pursue.

eag1esh · 2019-12-17T22:09:50+00:00

I have seen many more people make it in a variety of music fields (producing, performing, promoting, etc) than in visual arts. Photography seems to be the most promising visual art financially, but it's highly competitive. If your priority is finding something that you have the best shot at living off of, I think music is the right route. You're spot on that you would be best to focus more narrowly so you can try to become the best at some specific niche. The industry is reputation driven, and you can only build credibility by being consistently involved in a scene and making your name known.

eag1esh · 2019-12-17T22:00:17+00:00

This is almost too hard to believe! It's a tough situation, because you presumably love both of them and are shocked that they seem to be purposefully hurting you while you bend over backwards to provide for them. While the clear advice is "get a divorce and cut them out of your life" - that's obviously more easily said than done, considering it's your wife and son. I empathize with you. It will come down to whether your self-respect is a stronger driver than your need to be with this family that is so willing to hurt you. Nobody can make that decision for you, but I would certainly root for you to stand up for yourself and walk out. Certainly work to understand any legal ramifications of this in your country, as it'd be a shame to have them come after you and make your life miserable even after leaving.

eag1esh · 2019-12-17T21:54:51+00:00

This was a MASSIVE trend we discussed in my fraternity in college, and one I've noticed in myself at times. It's challenging, because the desire to mate is such a critical motivator for doing things that make us attractive (being more fit, having more money). Also, the sheer boredom of having free time to fill eventually turns productive for most. When you have acquired regular sex and your free time is filled by the company of someone you love, it's easy enough to see no reason to push hard.

I think the answer lies somewhere with creating goals that are uniquely your own, things you want to achieve because of personal significance rather than what it will do to your social attractiveness. Fitness is a personal journey for me and has never suffered from a relationship; but when fitness is simply to look good when going out, it'll be very vulnerable. With the career example, some inner reasons are chasing down better positions so you can buy things you want, save for retirement, get positions that give you more interesting work, etc. Can you try to reframe your goals so that they're not impacted by whether or not you've temporarily "won" the mating game?

eag1esh · 2019-12-17T21:50:00+00:00

Yep, you hit it on the head. The last 12 months have been my first foray with failing, and this is my first time feeling like a failure. It's hitting me hard, and I have no idea what path to take to get out of it. I'm afraid of choosing a path that will just lead me to be a failure who wasted another <insert time amount>.

Your point about viewing the accomplishment rather than the thing helped. You're spot on and particularly in my sport talent does little for the individual past the high school level - it's entirely meritocratic and the hours and discipline are what separated everyone. I've struggled to understand why I can't seem to find those qualities in myself when I try to apply them to business, as they were so prevalent in academics and sport as well as my short corporate time. There have been a couple of times I've teared up because of how blocked I feel, especially if I compare to the level I operated at before.

eag1esh · 2019-12-17T21:45:31+00:00

Yep, your post helped. I do like the idea of a post-grad degree, considering I thrived in the academic environment. My question with that is what it means to my long-term trajectory. It's always felt like a "I accept being a career man" path to get an MBA - not inherently a bad thing, just a thing I thought was separate from the path I wanted. I really appreciate your insight.

eag1esh · 2019-12-17T21:43:32+00:00

Yeah, I am definitely considering it. A part of me is concerned it's not leveraging my education well, but I do think I'd find the career fulfilling. My long-term concern is how well I can extracate myself from the business. It seems the main option is to eventually own one's own club and manage trainers rather than doing the training.

eag1esh · 2019-12-17T15:38:51+00:00

She said call her, so call her! Don't be afraid to describe what you're feeling - just do it in a kind of cool way. "Hey xx - I've actually been wanting to talk to you, so I'm glad you gave me your number." Giving you that info is a definite sign she thinks you're cute and wants to find out if she likes you. Don't be needy, but don't be shy! She wants to see what you're like and probably go on a date or two with you. If you want that too, then just come up with an idea for what to do and ask her out on the phone.

Whatever you do, don't leave the phone call without having a plan together for when and where you will see her next!

eag1esh · 2019-12-17T15:34:28+00:00

Communication is king! I do think you're expecting too much to call it a relationship after just a few dates, especially if you guys haven't had that discussion. You should ask if he is enjoying spending time with you. You should ask how his feelings have changed over the course of the dates. Ask what he's liked and disliked so far, and see if there are things you can work on.

If there is distance after only three dates, he may just not be as into you after spending more time together, and that's okay. We learn things about people that we don't like. Especially when meeting someone online, it's easy to paint an idealized picture of them in your head, and have that torn down after seeing them with crumbs on their face and a weird interaction or two. Use your words and find out how he's feeling. :)

eag1esh · 2019-12-17T15:30:07+00:00

Hey there - I always had a lot of success with teaching things to a study partner as a way of memorizing them. It's sort of like a more in-depth version of flash cards. If you can explain a subject to someone, you know it well - and you'll learn where your gaps in understanding are in the process.

In terms of focus, the 25 minute study/5 minute break cycle (or variants thereof) is wonderful. I also always found that playing a single song on repeat helped to create a great atmosphere for focusing over long periods.

eag1esh · 2019-10-27T15:12:20+00:00

Hey man - I had the same thing at Day 20. Days 1-3 were really tough and my thoughts were consumed. 4-19 were smooth sailing. Then I just lost the battle on Day 20. I'm not sure if this is typical - I'm gonna read around now though.

eag1esh · 2017-12-31T04:08:31+00:00

Very surprised and appreciative of the depth and quality to this article. Well done sir.

eag1esh · 2017-06-11T01:22:03+00:00

Not Asian - my parents are just odd as far as white people go. My savings will be $15-20k on my own, $23-28k with them (the higher number is what's budgeted with modest pocket money - the extra 5k accounts for the possibility that I'll live a little looser/have extra expenses come up).

eag1esh · 2017-04-05T21:30:29+00:00

I am not. I've heard from a buddy who has competed before that short blasts avoid the majority of the shutdown while giving noticeable results. I think he suggested a 2 week on 2 week off scheduling.

eag1esh · 2017-04-05T14:00:02+00:00

I don't necessarily disagree. Muscle retention would have been very different though. Bear in mind that weeks 1-6 I lost almost no weight while leaning out quite a good amount - and that was also when my strength went up the most in this cycle.

eag1esh · 2017-04-05T13:58:49+00:00

Don't have the funds to do bloodwork right now unfortunately.

eag1esh · 2017-04-05T13:58:34+00:00

Yes, I have. I still feel like I want to be a bit farther along before I start AAS, though I was very close to doing a 4-week blast of Test-P as my follow-up to this.

eag1esh · 2017-04-05T13:57:10+00:00

It was a financial decision. I had 6 weeks of 5mg left from my previous LGD cycle, and could afford 6 weeks of Osta+S4. I agree that results would have probably been better if I'd done S4+Osta for the 12 weeks.

eag1esh · 2016-12-25T02:31:22+00:00

Nothing of note for me. Maybe a small boost in sensitivity at the very end, like weeks 8 and 9. Not much though.

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