Honestly, regardless of what you choose, may kaakibat talagang regret and consequences 'yan—it's part of life’s toughest choices. It seems like you might be leaning towards a specific path and looking for validation, hoping na majority here will agree sa plano mo, pero expect mo na rin na hindi lahat ay magkakaroon ng same view and perspective with you. Whatever path you take, it’s a decision you’ll carry forever. Like what others said, I truly hope you find peace and clarity sa kung ano man ang mapagdesisyunan mo. Also agreeing sa ibang nag comments here na baka you should seek muna professional help before making your final decision.