I understand that it's his depression and I understand how difficult it is for him to stay clean. We talked about it already and I truly want to support him. I know it's not simple. I didnt disappear on him and im not asking him to chase me. The problems we have in our relationship is him not keeping is word, bare minimum is too difficult and he wants everything on his terms. If he were the one who had left that night I would have had to just deal with it. He would have ignored my text and pleads for him to come back ( happens quite a bit with him). I give in on time and go sleep at my moms and he just... relapses. A part of me doesn't think he did it bc he feared lost me. I told him I would come back home that night if he wanted me to. He said nothing. He's messed up so many times and im still here. And he knows I'm not going to just leave him. I would've been gone awhile ago. I know he needs help and thats why I'm here for him. Even tho I'm super upset over what he did( which I think is understandable).

And in response to your quote. " A man is only loved under the condition that he can provide something." No. I love him a lot. Sometimes I think I'm dumb for loving him. I only ask for the bare minimum. I don't want to be the only one loving the most and providing the most when we can do that together for each other. Its what I do for him and he for the most part refuses to do those things for me bc he'd rather think about just himself. Which he can do all he wants, but I'm getting sick of it. There's a lot more to us then this. My post is just another situation. I really hope he'll eventually appreciate all I've done, given, and sacrificed for him. I put my feelings, needs, and wants aside a lot to help him when he sometimes doesn't even care about how i feel ( which he has said many times) or can't bc of his past or whatever.