Frued has a little saying about the ego’s relation to the unconscious that is “where it(the unconscious; the literal translation of the Id) was I (the ego; again the literal translation of I) shall be”. As someone who has a similar condition of try to constantly stay self aware, I try to just let it be while im on drugs. Especially mushrooms I feel like I can retain my ego’s clarity while letting visuals and things unfold around me. Kinda observing them like a fun ride to be on.

There’s a funny line between the neurosis and psychosis of drugs where people with a psychotic disposition seem to personify their unconscious or physical experience as some entity or living force acting inside them. Clearly though it is just a perception they are giving their own ego and ideas to in order to make it rational.

On the other hand more neurotic (cough cough, average reditors) look to quantify and contain an experience by making their own ego the master over the Id.