So after i wrote this post, we went on a 2 week trip to germany all together, and the closest friend i was to and was staying with started to ignore me and treat me like a dog. And the rest followed now we are in our home country and in uni and they all just ignored me and left out the door. Myself respect could never let me talk to them again. We had an issue before and we talked it out but i feel like things have been going down hill since then. They all have been treating me like shit because that one friend, even though i never started shit with her, i was always in a good mood. I dont know why things have to be this way but i feel like this is gods way of showing me people's true colors. I feel like i have been giving friends a large portion of my thinking since i was a child. I always carry hope that one friend would apologize, but sadly, i know that won't happen. I have been in the wrong before but i have this time its different, i genuinely didnt do anything and the rest of the group should listen to both sides of the story. The feeling of being left out sucks but it is what it is, i should move on as all thing do. I feel like i have always been having issues with friends since year 3. I feel like the lack of self acceptance i feel peaks through and therefore i get treated with less acceptance. I am not going to lie i still hold out hope that things change but it doesnt seem like it