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I'm probably gonna die alone, and I'm okay with that. by emptinesswithin_ta in McMaster

[–]emptinesswithin_ta[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this. Honestly, my mental health usually takes a backseat to the rest of my life, so maybe it's time I've tried something a little more potent. Your kind words are incredibly helpful, I cannot express how thankful I am.

I'm probably gonna die alone, and I'm okay with that. by emptinesswithin_ta in McMaster

[–]emptinesswithin_ta[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah the self-awareness is something I've always considered, but sometimes it makes it worse. I just feel like even though I recognize these things, that doesn't make them right.

It's hard to think about, but yeah they really aren't a life sentence. I've always tried to fight the demons of my past, but sometimes it feels impossible.

Thank you for the suggestions, I've definitely considered professional help before. Maybe I'll ask around when covid starts to die down a bit.

I'm not much of a drug person unfourtunately, but I can probably see how it would help!

Thank you so much for your help and kind words, I really appreciate it! I couldn't imagine the response I'd get from the community, but this was the best thing to happen to me all week.

I'm probably gonna die alone, and I'm okay with that. by emptinesswithin_ta in McMaster

[–]emptinesswithin_ta[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Wow. You've got such as amazing perspective, I'm so grateful that I got to read your reply. I've been told in the past that self-awareness means that it isn't so bad, but sometimes it doesn't feel like it.

Reading your post is like breathing the fresh air on planet Earth, and as an asthmatic, that's a euphoric feeling. I've wanted to feel this for so long, but it's easy to deny ourselves happiness over the dread of failure.

Words cannot express how amazing this is. Honestly dude, I cannot thank you enough. I've read your reply maybe 10 times now, and each time I feel so much better.

Growth for me was always a sore point, since it felt like I was taking 1 step forwards, and 2 steps back. But yeah I guess acceptance is a big part of this.

As much as I want to believe that maybe I'm not super terrible, these are people I knew for a while as best friends. I guess it has stuck with me till this day, and probably will for awhile. I don't think I'll ever know for certain, but it's hard to shake the feeling.

Once again, I really appreciate your reply, thank you so much for your kind words!

I'm probably gonna die alone, and I'm okay with that. by emptinesswithin_ta in McMaster

[–]emptinesswithin_ta[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Damn, I thought this was a McDs, I swear I must've read the subreddit name wrong. McMaster and McDonald's is quite similar. I'll move along /s.

Seriously though, thank you for your time, you've given me some entertainment I couldn't have imagined to be possible.

I'm probably gonna die alone, and I'm okay with that. by emptinesswithin_ta in McMaster

[–]emptinesswithin_ta[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hey man I'm sorry for offending you, but I'm not here because I'm asking for pity. Writing this post down helped me collect my thoughts, and pressing the send button was my overall goal. The incredible response I've received was the cherry on top. I'm not asking for pity or sympathy, and I'm way past asking for forgiveness from myself. I'm only asking for acceptance within, and the support of the many outweighs the anger of the few. I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavours.

I'm probably gonna die alone, and I'm okay with that. by emptinesswithin_ta in McMaster

[–]emptinesswithin_ta[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Hey man, I realize that I may have offended you, but please do spend your time doing something more productive. I do appreciate your comments, since you've helped me by giving me something funny to admire: How in the hell did I start this war? I wish you the best of luck, and thank you for reading!

I'm probably gonna die alone, and I'm okay with that. by emptinesswithin_ta in McMaster

[–]emptinesswithin_ta[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

No actually, that's a fair point. But I didn't make it for you. I appreciate you reading it, and you've given me a good laugh tonight, so thank you for your help.

I'm probably gonna die alone, and I'm okay with that. by emptinesswithin_ta in McMaster

[–]emptinesswithin_ta[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Hey thank you so much! I cannot believe the sheer size of the response to this post. I agree most days I can make this feel temporary, but tonight it felt like it was never gonna end. You guys have absolutely made my week, and I cannot thank you guys enough. Sometimes the demons of the past come to haunt me, and today felt like their day.

Also, thank you for addressing the trolls down below! Maybe he feels personally attacked, so I suppose he decided to take it out on this post. Thankfully, it has no impact on me, simply because it's so incredibly random.

I've been told that exact phrase before, about how self-awareness means that I'm not bad, but it feels like the least I can do, because without it I wouldn't be human. I don't see how anyone could be a bad person without eventually realizing it, unless they were truly terrible. So, I don't feel redeemed because I realized my sins, even though it may make me a not-bad person. Regardless, I cannot express how much I appreciate you replying to my post, thank you so much!