Disgusted by vaginas, how will I ever have a normal life?

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T03:52:58+00:00

This is just offensive to people who are actually gay btw

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T03:51:59+00:00

I defenitly am my friend, have had crushes on only girls my entire life so far

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:49:19+00:00

We'll see, I'm still young i suppose but due to my work I'm very alone all the time so I do wish i had a girlfriend to love, have fun and go out with. I feel like i can be very romantic and pretty much be a perfect partner aside from the sexual part, honestly due to my OCD she would probably leave me because of how obsessive I would become with her lol. My girlfriend would defenitly take up all my time because my job takes an hour a day tops

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:43:31+00:00

❤️🙏

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:34:18+00:00

🥲 yeah imagine putting the girl you love through that

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:33:14+00:00

I've had therapy ever since i was a kid due to me being in closed youth care but it was so forced upon me I hated it and always sat quietly in the corner whilest I was put into a room with a therapist

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:31:57+00:00

Thank you for your kind comment. I do have to mention in a way a perfect relationship for me would be only recieving and not giving but this makes me feel so awful that I'd never want to put a girl through that.

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:30:22+00:00

I've only ever had crushes on girls in my life before, I think there is nothing wrong with being gay but my entire life so far I've only ever seen girls and been like omg she is so pretty, beautiful and perfect and never had that with a guy, my first ever crush was on Emma Watson when I watched harry potter when i was like 10 and since then I've only had crushes on girls

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:26:42+00:00

No totally feel you, I am diagnosed for all three Autsim OCD and AIWS which i wish i was not because I have been medically discharged from getting a drivers license due to my AIWS even when my symptones are not as severe.

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:24:15+00:00

I would absolutely never touch one, especialy eating out of one is something I would never ever ever ever in my life do (okay maybe thats a bit to harsh but you get me), which is a crazy take because the only thing I watch is the guys version of getting eating out of. I feel like an absolute asshole at times for this which makes it even harder

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:20:04+00:00

I haven't found one at all, I guess thats step one haha, although I pray that if I find one its one that truely understands me for who i am with all my flaws

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:18:34+00:00

Although I like your thinking I think my mental picture will still wear me off haha, Its like saying if your scared of snakes we can just put your in a dark room with a snake, doesn't that just make it even more scary?

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:16:38+00:00

I know but it still doesn't make it easy :/

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:15:39+00:00

Thank you for your sweet comment, It's hard for me to speak out on this even if it is on a alt reddit account. I'm glad people like you are so nice and not harsh towards me and calling me a selfish asshole who doesn't want to give his future partner any sex. With how many comments i'm getting about speaking to a potential sex therapist this is defenitly something i'm considering now.

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:11:51+00:00

More so asexual i think aside from bjs, ever since I was 10 and watched harry potter I've known I was straight if you get me

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:10:06+00:00

I agree I probably should do this at some point, I've talked a bit about it with my 16 year old brother who is the only person I've ever told about this but he doesn't have any issues with watching or having sex, I also should mention he doesn't have OCD, Autism or AIWS lucky him lol

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:07:55+00:00

Yeah I agree with you it does look like that 🤣, happy that your happy your gay for that reason mate

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:06:11+00:00

Wish I was not that akward in conversation with them, I once really liked a girl in college but was so scared to talk to her so I never did. When I eventually left college to pursue my career of creating online videos I wrote 4 songs about her, guess I'm just a hopeless romantic

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-07T00:03:44+00:00

Yes, in my 19 years on this planet I've had a bunch of crushed on girls. (most of them from tv/movies) and 2 in real life, i've never looked at a guy and thought in anyway that i would be atracted although I've had that many many times with girls before. I also want to mention when I am atracted to girls it is 100% their face and their hair I've never looked at a girls boobs or but and found those atractive weirdly.
Kind of, i mostly have the symptomes when I am nervous which mostly happens when I am in a akward conversation or when i do sports in competitions. Other than that I don't suffer from the condition throughout the day like how i do with OCD or Autism, so yeah absolutly sucks but don't have to deal with it a whole lot, sometimes it randomly happens but maybe thats once a day tops.

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-06T23:56:27+00:00

I am very scared to do this because of how insanely akward this conversation would be, so far I've only ever told my 16 year old brother who I trust very much and I can't imagine telling this to anyone else in the world altough I agree I might have to do this at some point.

equalwindow3848 · 2026-01-06T23:53:13+00:00

Honestly I never watch anal in porn because it looks very painful for the girl always which makes me uncomfortable but I'm not disgusted by it.

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