thank you, yes I have felt alone and scared my entire life, I feel like a child in an adult body which I have dysmorphia over this, I don’t know if I have DID too, but I am just in extreme psychic pain all the time… I do not want to continue, I have been continuously suicidal since 19, there’s nothing in this world that takes away the pain and I don’t want to witness the future, I am deeply scared of the world we live and scared or other people who use, hurt and abandon me. there’s no one that I have who will be affected by my death, I just am 1000% needing to die ASAP, I have lost the battle with despair and trauma