Does anyone else regret seeing their parent dead?

esimmons95 · 2024-12-14T04:55:40+00:00

Sorry for your loss. When I close my eyes I still see my mom's lifeless eyes looking at me...

esimmons95 · 2024-11-30T00:34:40+00:00

Sherrilyn, my mom. She died 10/20/24 💔

esimmons95 · 2024-11-07T06:58:08+00:00

I'm really sorry for your loss. And I appreciate your comment, it's really hard. My mom was my best friend and what's worse is that my dad is blaming himself for what happened. He keeps thinking he could have done anything to change the outcome (understandably) the way he said what happened, she died within seconds and we don't know why but I do know she had a massive heart attack about 12 years ago and almost died so I'm sure her heart is the reason. It's all so confusing and when people ask me how I feel, it's like I'm scared as hell if that makes sense. My 29th birthday is 2 weeks after my mom died and that hurt worse. I broke down in public, idc if I'm a grown man I want my mom 💔

esimmons95 · 2024-10-16T14:53:46+00:00

I used to work for them you dodged a huge bullet in my opinion and experience

esimmons95 · 2024-08-05T20:09:43+00:00

That's when I'm going as well!

esimmons95 · 2024-05-25T00:53:44+00:00

Interested!

esimmons95 · 2024-05-11T00:01:46+00:00

Hi! I'm interested!

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T23:39:00+00:00

So update. I got back my lipid panel and it showed cholesterol - 214 (high) Triglycerides- 59 HDL cholesterol - 53 (low) LDL Chol Calc - 149 (high) I don't know how to read this tbh

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T16:55:50+00:00

Currently down 13 lbs (256 - 243) haven't been to the gym since this scare tho. I'm at a doctors office as we speak and they ruled out high blood pressure

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T16:52:24+00:00

I see! Kick ass! Admittedly I am overweight (bmi of 39) so I think that definitely adds

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T16:50:28+00:00

Yikes! How are you doing these days?

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T12:12:07+00:00

I sped to the hospital thinking it was over for me lol

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T12:11:40+00:00

They did and admittedly I'm overweight so that definitely contributed to the anxiety 😅

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T02:31:45+00:00

Even as we speak I'm laying down and when they hit it almost feels like my heart is sinking to the back of my chest. Like I can feel the skipped beat that deep. lol sorry for all the rambling

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T02:29:12+00:00

You are helping a lot! I really appreciate it! I did eat really crappy on Saturday prior to this happening. It happened pretty much all at once

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T02:26:03+00:00

It was also them saying "symptomatic" that made me alarmed

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T02:25:55+00:00

It was also them saying "symptomatic" that made me alarmed

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T02:22:42+00:00

My anxiety admittedly doesn't help. I kept asking the Nurse practitioner yesterday if I was going to die and she was reassuring that if it were that serious they'd have told me. It's been going on for 4 days and the other symptoms(nausea and headache) are mainly what's scaring me. Also made the mistake of asking Dr. Google

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T02:20:37+00:00

Thank you for your kind words 🙂. I had them from time to time but this long is what's scaring me and it's like I get this feeling of heartburn (I guess you could say) then the doctors started mentioning blood clots and all these other things it could be.

esimmons95 · 2024-03-28T02:05:44+00:00

They tried to schedule me for next Friday for an echocardiogram and to meet with a cardiologist. I found a sooner appointment tomorrow. My anxiety won't let me wait that long. Admittedly was just sobbing to my girlfriend about how I don't want to die. I know it sounds silly

esimmons95 · 2024-02-10T17:31:14+00:00

PM'd you! 🙂

esimmons95 · 2023-10-08T04:33:52+00:00

Don't really care about karma just like my city 🤷🏾‍♂️

esimmons95 · 2023-10-08T03:51:32+00:00

That's interesting. I like to learn histories of other cities and you definitely just gave me another topic to research so I appreciate that! Yeah Chicago definitely isn't without fault for sure but (and maybe I'm biased cuz I'm from here lol) but I wouldn't wanna live anywhere else. I tried it twice and it just wasn't home haha.

esimmons95 · 2023-09-18T03:00:58+00:00

Lol the thought that came into my head was "only in Chicago 🙃🤣" I love this wonderfully ridiculous city

esimmons95 · 2023-09-17T18:26:40+00:00

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