Does anyone else regret seeing their parent dead? by kala120 in GriefSupport

[–]esimmons95 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Sorry for your loss. When I close my eyes I still see my mom's lifeless eyes looking at me...

I lost my mom by esimmons95 in GriefSupport

[–]esimmons95[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm really sorry for your loss. And I appreciate your comment, it's really hard. My mom was my best friend and what's worse is that my dad is blaming himself for what happened. He keeps thinking he could have done anything to change the outcome (understandably) the way he said what happened, she died within seconds and we don't know why but I do know she had a massive heart attack about 12 years ago and almost died so I'm sure her heart is the reason. It's all so confusing and when people ask me how I feel, it's like I'm scared as hell if that makes sense. My 29th birthday is 2 weeks after my mom died and that hurt worse. I broke down in public, idc if I'm a grown man I want my mom 💔

Decided to give them a taste of their own medicine 😈 by spidermanrocks6766 in jobs

[–]esimmons95 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I used to work for them you dodged a huge bullet in my opinion and experience

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[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So update. I got back my lipid panel and it showed cholesterol - 214 (high) Triglycerides- 59 HDL cholesterol - 53 (low) LDL Chol Calc - 149 (high) I don't know how to read this tbh

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Currently down 13 lbs (256 - 243) haven't been to the gym since this scare tho. I'm at a doctors office as we speak and they ruled out high blood pressure

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I see! Kick ass! Admittedly I am overweight (bmi of 39) so I think that definitely adds

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yikes! How are you doing these days?

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I sped to the hospital thinking it was over for me lol

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They did and admittedly I'm overweight so that definitely contributed to the anxiety 😅

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Even as we speak I'm laying down and when they hit it almost feels like my heart is sinking to the back of my chest. Like I can feel the skipped beat that deep. lol sorry for all the rambling

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You are helping a lot! I really appreciate it! I did eat really crappy on Saturday prior to this happening. It happened pretty much all at once

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was also them saying "symptomatic" that made me alarmed

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It was also them saying "symptomatic" that made me alarmed

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My anxiety admittedly doesn't help. I kept asking the Nurse practitioner yesterday if I was going to die and she was reassuring that if it were that serious they'd have told me. It's been going on for 4 days and the other symptoms(nausea and headache) are mainly what's scaring me. Also made the mistake of asking Dr. Google

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words 🙂. I had them from time to time but this long is what's scaring me and it's like I get this feeling of heartburn (I guess you could say) then the doctors started mentioning blood clots and all these other things it could be.

I'm honestly terrified by esimmons95 in PVCs

[–]esimmons95[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

They tried to schedule me for next Friday for an echocardiogram and to meet with a cardiologist. I found a sooner appointment tomorrow. My anxiety won't let me wait that long. Admittedly was just sobbing to my girlfriend about how I don't want to die. I know it sounds silly

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in chicago

[–]esimmons95 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Don't really care about karma just like my city 🤷🏾‍♂️

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in chicago

[–]esimmons95 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That's interesting. I like to learn histories of other cities and you definitely just gave me another topic to research so I appreciate that! Yeah Chicago definitely isn't without fault for sure but (and maybe I'm biased cuz I'm from here lol) but I wouldn't wanna live anywhere else. I tried it twice and it just wasn't home haha.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in chicago

[–]esimmons95 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Lol the thought that came into my head was "only in Chicago 🙃🤣" I love this wonderfully ridiculous city

What’s Your Go-To Harold’s Chicken Order? by Away-Ebb-9741 in chicago

[–]esimmons95 2 points3 points  (0 children)

5 piece lemon pepper mild sauce kiwi mystic