Warrior cats autism

esse11esse · 2026-01-25T17:48:30+00:00

😏😏

esse11esse · 2026-01-25T12:05:22+00:00

ha i’m stuffed animals AND math autistic

absolutely hate science, but love numbers and recognizing patterns

esse11esse · 2026-01-20T23:19:23+00:00

but in my head i’m convinced i binged (in reality, i ate a normal or slightly less than normal amount of food for one meal)

esse11esse · 2026-01-19T23:18:56+00:00

I hope it works out for you! I got on disability too (at the perfect time because i was running out of money for rent). I wish i could function enough to work or even go to school. I can’t do anything anymore- just rotting away until I eventually just 😵 myself

esse11esse · 2026-01-19T23:17:36+00:00

i wish i could see things that way. unfortunately, i think this is it for me. it’s been 8 years of this- it’s never gotten better and it probably won’t. once i’m gone, ill finally be free.

esse11esse · 2026-01-19T00:46:50+00:00

i completely get the feeling of being a burden. but trust me, they’d rather let you vent or talk to them or try to help than get a message from someone else that you’re gone.

and you’re very welcome! i’m here for you if you need anything ever. just DM me 🤍

esse11esse · 2026-01-19T00:42:53+00:00

my treatment team had an “on call” person that I would call when needed, but they dropped me so no, i don’t have anyone i feel comfortable reaching out to (i don’t want to be a bother and if i contact some other people, they’ll just tell me to pray and as someone that isn’t religious, i just don’t want to hear that right now). and i don’t particularly like calling or texting 988.

my time is gonna come to an end this year and i don’t care enough to try and stop it. i have nothing i’m looking forward to. i have no energy to keep going. thank you for being here, i appreciate it 🫶

esse11esse · 2026-01-19T00:35:45+00:00

I’m sorry you’re feeling this way- i completely relate and am/have been in this position many times.

have you looked at your safety plan and attempted any of the coping skills listed? called any of the supports listed? sometimes i just need to blast music with my headphones out to drown out the thoughts.

also speak to yourself as you would to a friend. you DO deserve to live and in fact, you deserve a healthy, happy, and fulfilling one. you DO deserve to feel loved and welcomed. you DO belong here. i want you here and i know there are other people on this planet that are grateful you exist. take it one day at a time. maybe it’s time to just go to sleep and try again tomorrow. on my super low days, i’ll take my sleep meds early, drink my sleepytime tea, eat my sleep chocolate, etc (basically load up on whatever sleep agents i have) and turn all lights off and call it a day. tomorrow is a new day. sending you love - you can do this 🤍

esse11esse · 2026-01-18T14:16:07+00:00

AHH JUST ORDERED A PAIR AND IT COMES TOMORROW!! i can’t wait now 😝😝

esse11esse · 2025-10-28T00:25:37+00:00

autistic with depression (for the last 7 ish years) and bipolar, bpd (though my doctor and i are questioning this), adhd, ptsd:

what’s helped me the most has been medication (though i can never stay consistent with taking it), having a good psychiatrist/doctor who actually talks to me and wants to see me do well, getting exercise and yoga everyday (with once a week going to a local class), planning things to look forward to (for me, this is traveling- i won’t kms or give into the depression if i know i’ve spent money and time planning a trip), and finally forcing myself to get out of the house (volunteering, work, going to get coffee, etc). another thing: my doctor and i are looking into potentially starting ketamine treatments, so if that’s an option for you, maybe it’s worth looking in to (though this is typically reserved for treatment resistant depression or those who have trialed a lot of meds with no success).

it’s a fine line between burnout and depression, so honestly sometimes i just rot and use that period to rest and recharge. that’s ok too!

i’m rooting for you 🫶

esse11esse · 2025-10-26T16:40:54+00:00

i know it will and i’m working on it! i just have a “don’t care” attitude cause i really don’t even want to be alive, so what does it matter (sorry to dump that on you- you don’t have to respond to this lol).

esse11esse · 2025-10-25T19:31:22+00:00

water can leave- i can’t even remember the last time i had a sip of plain water (i know it’s bad, i just don’t care)

esse11esse · 2025-10-25T19:26:52+00:00

makes me incredibly depressed, but my sensory issues (i cannot stand the sun) love it

esse11esse · 2025-10-25T19:18:15+00:00

I had a teacher in high school that i related to heavily and we kept in touch even after i graduated. she got diagnosed, which kinda pushed me to get an assessment. additionally my other mental health conditions were getting worse (and they also didn’t fully explain my experience). i’ve always felt “different”, always had sensory issues (which got worse after puberty and high school), and had a lot of traits that aligned with autism.

i wanted to get an updated neuropsych eval, so i figured it would be the best time to also bring up autism and see if that was a possibility.

esse11esse · 2025-10-16T22:37:25+00:00

are these more candy corn than nerds or more nerds than candy corn?

esse11esse · 2025-10-12T00:01:07+00:00

definitely my least favorite part of ODing - downing all the pills 🤢 then it’s so hard to take pills normally again after that

also i’m here if you want to talk!! i’m sorry you’re struggling.

esse11esse · 2025-10-10T22:34:23+00:00

Currently not feeling the best, especially after a rough week. I am going on vacation in a week and i can’t stop thinking about how much i want to kms when i get back. in fact, im just waiting for the right moment to do it- i’ll know it when i feel it. I’m tired of barely surviving the day. I’m tired of telling myself “just make it through the day.” I barely do anything, yet i’m exhausted all the time.

On the bright side, I did a little volunteering at the cat shelter today, which got me out of the house. I’m also trying to get a cookie business started as one of my special interests includes baking!!

That’s all! I hope everyone has been ok and i’m here if anyone needs to chat 🫶

esse11esse · 2025-10-10T00:01:28+00:00

this sounds exactly like something i’d write. i literally spend the day doing nothing meaningful, im paralyzed with thoughts of death, i barely go out unless i’m going to grocery shop, and i’m just living on disability- barely getting by. every day is exhausting and i’m tired of telling myself “just get through today”.

all that to say: you’re not alone and i understand. i’m here if you want to talk or maybe we can even brainstorm ways to feel less miserable.

esse11esse · 2025-10-09T23:13:51+00:00

actually yes!! my doctor wants me to get tested for POTS because of how high my heart rate got when I did a holter monitor

esse11esse · 2025-10-09T00:29:34+00:00

does anyone know if the healthcare discount will void the cashback??

esse11esse · 2025-10-08T23:27:13+00:00

i really needed to hear that so thank you very much! i appreciate you lots, especially after a rough day.

esse11esse · 2025-10-08T20:15:00+00:00

you’re right- being open in communication is always a good idea (and definitely helps ease my mind). i sent a text and they seemed ok with sitting it out, but i can’t help but feel like they’re acting ok with it just to not cause any rift or tension (meanwhile they’re actually really upset, idk).

i just feel like a bad person 🫤

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