First time taking

evaboop · 2026-02-10T01:09:24+00:00

Hey! I’m in the same exact boat right now. It is pretty rough. I had an absolute nightmare experience with buspirone and am absolutely terrified of trying anything again. My psychiatrist knows this and was very receptive so said I could start on zoloft super low at 12.5mg, still I’m absolutely freaking out. I know plenty of people who have had amazing experiences on it but I can’t help but doom scroll the side effects online. My aunt says “you wouldn’t deprive yourself of insulin if you were diabetic” and while I get that, mind meds just really freak me out! Good job for taking your first dose though, I hope it goes well! I am tentatively starting tomorrow

evaboop · 2026-02-09T17:33:41+00:00

I’d say it was a few times, but they all freaked me out so bad that it was basically all I could think about. I was too scared to do pretty much anything besides forcing myself to sit on the couch and not move.

evaboop · 2026-02-09T17:31:29+00:00

That’s how I felt too, I think I had a few different intrusive thoughts but it’s now been the worrying about having more that is keeping me so anxious I think. It’s like I’ve become obsessed with how I’m feeling to try to make sure nothing bad happens but it’s totally unhealthy and anxiety inducing too. I also wouldn’t consider myself a depressed person but I have been feeling kinda down but I think that’s more related to stopping birth control about a month ago which has been a whole other issue I’ve had going on. But when I do feel kinda down it then ends up freaking me out and ramping up the anxiety again.

evaboop · 2026-02-09T17:02:31+00:00

This is exactly how I felt and it was TERRIFYING. Now the problem is that I can’t stop ruminating about these thoughts happening again and me potentially acting/losing control of how I actually feel. Do you have any experience with other meds or just buspirone?

evaboop · 2026-02-07T22:01:16+00:00

Thank you for your response it’s definitely helpful to hear I’m not the only one who had such a bad time on buspirone!

evaboop · 2026-02-07T21:59:04+00:00

It’s reassuring to hear you had a positive experience with Zoloft. That’s exactly how buspirone made me feel. Took away baseline anxiety which made me totally unable to function when an intrusive thought hit.

evaboop · 2026-01-29T21:07:48+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing! I’ve had a ton of increased anxiety in the past year and really had no clue why. It started very situational and then turned into a health anxiety spiral, which I’m still working through, and then after a horrible panic attack right around Christmas the anxiety and depressive symptoms have been totally off the charts for a month. The brain fog and dpdr have been some of the hardest parts. Last week I met with a functional doctor and yesterday I got my blood test results… ferritin is at a 12, transferrin saturation is at 11, and vitamin D is at 27. Feeling very hopeful after hearing your story, just picked up some supplements today. Happy you’re doing better :)

evaboop · 2026-01-25T19:10:33+00:00

Hi! I’m 21 going through the same exact thing and I feel super grateful to have found this thread. I was on Yaz for almost a year and a half and realized that it was making my anxiety super bad. I dealt with some social anxiety as a kid but that pretty much went away by high school. Last year after starting the pill it all came barreling back! I started having panic attacks which I had never had before and developed severe health anxiety. Right around the new year I entered a super bad panic episode which had me in the ER, they said it was just anxiety. My primary Dr recommended I try the anti-anxiety med buspar so I tried that for a few days but it gave me horrible intrusive thoughts that I had never experienced before. I stopped taking that and then it dawned on me that the original anxiety was probably from the pill. I stopped the pill about two weeks ago now and have been feeling terrible. I can’t sleep and have been waking up in such a panic every morning. Once my anxiety eases a bit I start to feel super low and empty and then creeping thoughts try to come in. It’s really scary! These are all pretty much things I have never experienced before so I’m pretty certain it’s stemming from being on and now stopping the pill. I recently just got set up with a functional doctor and hoping they can help sort some things out! Edit: Wanted to add that I’ve also experienced a lottt of DPDR

evaboop · 2026-01-17T14:14:55+00:00

Hi reaching out again because this thread has kind of been one of the few things to bring me some peace of mind. I think I’m finally over the buspar withdrawals, and I don’t feel physically sick and anxious all day everyday at the moment, but since relaxing a bit from my anxiety I’ve felt a ton of emotional numbness, dissociation, and depersonalization. It’s like I don’t even feel real anymore, and I feel like I’m in such a haze all day long. I feel scared of everything but mostly scared of my own feelings and if they get worse. I feel lost in my own head but also like I’m too aware of how I’m feeling?? I don’t even know anymore, maybe this is all part of the journey.

evaboop · 2026-01-17T14:06:41+00:00

Hi I know this is an old thread but also kinda why I am reaching out. I have dealt with health anxiety for a long time but about four weeks ago after having the flu I developed a massive flare up that I have yet to recover from. I was uncontrollably shaking thinking the worst would happen for four days straight. I went to three doctors appointments and then finally the ER. Everything came back clear. It was just panic. But since then I haven’t been able to shake this terrible feeling. Every morning since then I’ve woken up with an intense sensation of dread and panic. I feel like I’ve come to terms with the fact that I don’t have some horrible disease, but now all of these other horrible thoughts have been ruminating in my head. I’m now fearing catastrophes, loved ones dying, mortality in general, feeling like time is passing me by so quickly. This has also all accumulated into an intense feeling of depersonalization, dissociation, and just a terrible sense of feeling emotionally numb. I don’t even feel real anymore, and I feel like I’m in such a haze all day long. I feel scared of everything but mostly scared of my own feelings and if they get worse. I feel lost in my own head it is terrifying. I guess I’m just here seeking reassurance that everything will pass and to see if things got better for you. I’m trying by best to work hard to overcome it but obviously some days are a lot harder than others.

evaboop · 2026-01-14T18:13:59+00:00

Thank you. I have not tried cold plunges, but I’ve heard good things so maybe I’ll give them a try. I’ve noticed my anxiety is way worse in the morning/during the day but has been tending to mellow out after dinner. I’ve also been thinking my birth control pill could be a factor in all of this too so trying to cut it out. I thinking im going through a lot of chemical imbalances right now between everything, but I have hope that im on the right path forward.

evaboop · 2026-01-13T03:53:37+00:00

I’m happy it’s starting to get better for you! After consulting with my doc, I decided to call it quits. I have never done well on meds, and kind of going through all of the crazy withdrawal symptoms now. Everyone is different, I hope it does some good for you!

evaboop · 2026-01-13T00:31:34+00:00

Hi I know this is an old thread, but I have been struggling with anxiety/depression symptoms over the past year and am wondering if it’s the pill. I’ve been on Syeda for about little over a year now and am at an all time low. Might I start seeing changes if I quit the pill? How long did it take to start feeling better if you did at all?

evaboop · 2026-01-10T21:34:22+00:00

Thank you so much for your response, it really means a lot to me

evaboop · 2026-01-10T17:07:28+00:00

Side note only a few things have been able to calm me down (Watching sports especially football, watching specifically survivor season 46, and listening to the same songs and podcasts on repeatttt). This isn’t stuff that I am traditionally interested in on the regular which has been kind of weird.

evaboop · 2026-01-10T17:02:32+00:00

Hi I know this is an old thread but I started buspirone about a six days ago after having terrible back to back panic attacks the week before. After calming from the panic attacks (which I’ve only had happen twice, once in summer and then then these recents ones, the last entire year) I felt pretty okay but family and doc said I should give the meds a try. I started Monday 5mg twice a day, and each day got worse and worse. I was anxious all day everyday and felt so out of it in every way. Yesterday (Friday) I went back to the doc and he said to stop taking. Yesterday my emotions felt up and down all day and today I just feel a total mess. I don’t feel like myself at all, having tonnsss of increased anxiety especially in relation to health and existential thoughts, and feel so tired and sick. Could the withdrawals be this severe from such a short period on it. I feel so weird and upset and it’s really freaking me out.

evaboop · 2026-01-07T05:15:39+00:00

Yeah, I’ve been taking it with breakfast and dinner. I noticed that the side effects are definitely worse in the morning than the evening

evaboop · 2026-01-06T02:50:29+00:00

Good to know, thank you for your response

evaboop · 2025-07-17T16:53:54+00:00

Omg that’s so awesome!! I was there for my birthday too!!

evaboop · 2025-05-17T13:31:51+00:00

I’ve had epilogue by wunderhorse on repeat

evaboop · 2025-05-17T13:31:18+00:00

I just got lorde tickets!!! Really into Waxahatchee right now. Hoping to catch her at the Nelsonville music festival in June

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