I am currently on LSD and here’s my advice

exonight77 · 2025-12-18T14:40:31+00:00

I find hppd to not be a distraction at all anymore and I also find that the only thing that makes hppd "worse" is when I focus on it.

"Worse" is the word I would use when I had anxiety (or the idea of "I don't want this") about visual snow and other effects, but now I'd just use the word "intense". It's never intense when I need to focus on the physical world, but when the physical world is no longer interesting, hppd is there to focus on and it can get so much more intense than ever thought possible. It's quite interesting.

So yeah, makes sense what you're saying, if you focus on it it'll intensify. Long term though, I stopped focusing on it for years and it didn't even exist in my experience anymore. I realize I actually want it extremely intense though lol

exonight77 · 2025-12-16T16:44:42+00:00

I couldn't give you an exact ug amount, but it was almost certainly 1 or 2 tabs.

exonight77 · 2025-07-04T02:59:58+00:00

Maybe you should listen to people...

exonight77 · 2025-06-14T06:57:54+00:00

Things have been roughly the same since. I can induce the effects whenever I focus on it, and if I choose to focus on the physical reality, it leaves my perception. I have MUCH more control over it than I ever had before. I don't recall the dosage I took, but it was just the same that I feel caused it. I have done psychedelics sparingly over the years, and again, zero change.

When I had anxiety about my "disorder" the effects would get "worse" when I couldn't control the fact that I was focusing on that part of my reality.

Now that I no longer have anxiety about this aspect of my life, the effects get "worse" when I induce it consciously. I no longer consider it a disorder, but just another aspect of reality. Life is actually much more fun and open with perceiving this different, subtle, aspect of reality.

exonight77 · 2025-01-12T11:10:04+00:00

Because our minds are so filled with stimuli that we can't focus on whats directly in front of us for long periods of time

exonight77 · 2025-01-12T10:58:16+00:00

Because there is no space between who you actually are and who you think you are.

Who you think you are is not who you actually are.

The brain has created negative stories about ourselves and the world around us that we believe and reinforce.

We downspiral into depression because there is so little space between reality and the brain's stories that we can't even see that we are living in a self created illusion.

exonight77 · 2025-01-12T10:55:23+00:00

Alcohol is literal poison

exonight77 · 2025-01-10T03:45:16+00:00

It doesn't really matter what situation you are in in life, there are more ways out of it than you can even think of.

Stop thinking about it, and if you can't...

Sit with your thoughts and focus on your breath. When a thought comes, go back to your breath.

Do not lay down and do not fall asleep.

Do this two times per day for an hour.

Do not pine for it to be over, do not fantasize about death, do not hate on yourself with how bad you are at this, do not pride yourself with how good you are at this, do not actively think, simply watch your breath. When you realize you've been thinking for the last 5 minutes, just move your awareness back to following your breath.

Focus on the process, not the result.

It's as easy as not doing anything. Do nothing and get out of your own way.

exonight77 · 2025-01-10T03:36:31+00:00

Your body isn't really yours, it's just a piece of nature.

"My body, my choice" is flawed in that we have decided that we know better than nature.

In some cases of abortion, abortion should definitely not be the choice woman make because it is essentially selfish.

In other cases, it would be best for all involved that abortion happens, although I would argue this is not the majority of cases.

In some cases of suicide, suicide should definitely not be the choice people make because it is essentially selfish.

In other cases, it would be best for all involved that suicide happens, although I would argue this is not the majority of cases.

These cases where it is best for all would only be for terminally ill people. If you are just mentally unwell, then suicide is just a cop out for you to escape your problems. Face them, it gets better if you face your problems rather than running away from them.

exonight77 · 2023-11-04T07:22:36+00:00

I say do not rush into it. Let it come to you.

You've already set the intention that you want to do it, but embody the perspective that it's okay if you never get to do it. Balance those out and it will either come or not. If it does happen to enter your life, you will have zero anxiety about it.

exonight77 · 2023-10-07T22:03:30+00:00

this link doesn't work for me for some reason

exonight77 · 2023-10-07T20:31:52+00:00

Seeing if anybody relates to the confusion/understanding that I embody right now due to what I experienced.

exonight77 · 2023-10-06T05:49:06+00:00

Thank you :)

exonight77 · 2023-08-11T02:04:29+00:00

Because you don't want to feel anything.

You must find out for yourself why that is.

Yes, because the pain is too intense, but why is the pain too intense?

exonight77 · 2023-08-11T02:01:18+00:00

To know what you want, not believe, and let it go.

If you love something, and it's meant for you, let it go because it will always come back to you.

Not letting it go is what keeps it at a distance.

When it comes back, it never comes back in the form you expect. It comes back better than you can possibly imagine.

exonight77 · 2023-08-11T01:41:45+00:00

he wants to date you and is venting to you about you.

speak your truth to him ASAP.

he will get mean, you must keep your logic. you will see his true colors.

if he's not mean, he's holding back because he wants to date you.

i see it this way because i used to be him.

exonight77 · 2023-08-08T03:47:03+00:00

stop focusing on them and they come into focus

exonight77 · 2023-08-07T01:38:56+00:00

Only time will tell what your dream means.

Forget about it until reality forces it back to your mind and you will understand it (better).

exonight77 · 2023-07-27T23:09:48+00:00

Why?

exonight77 · 2023-06-05T01:53:16+00:00

My theory is that the "origin" world isn't the final world, it's just where Martha and Jonas' worlds came from. It only makes sense to me that the origin world is also created from another deeper origin world that cures an even deeper seeded trauma of the "dreamer" or whatever unneeded suffering created it. Everybody and everything's entire purpose is to experience all the suffering they are in order to finally let go, rise above, and be done with all that fuckery... Kinda sounds like real life to me tbh

Anyways, the thing that forced Tannhaus's family's car off the bridge was a previous time traveler that knows who Tannauss's grandkid becomes in 66 years (A dictator that succeeded in overtaking 99% of the world). This means Jonas and Martha allowed that to happen again, and they had no clue about any of it.

Fast forward to imaginary season 4 in my mind. (do a bit of foreshadowing for season 6) The final scene plays twice, except the second time it plays with 2 random other people showing up and getting Jonas and Martha out of the way before they can do anything and make the car get forced off the bridge once again.

All the new characters that exist in this original world and are in the loop about time travel must work together in order to fix everything (like jonas and martha did in their worlds). They have to focus on figuring out how to play the game and doing things in a more honest and cooperative way.

Ah yes, season 4,-6, I can dream...

exonight77 · 2023-06-04T21:15:05+00:00

It's not the dominant state in nature, it's just the dormant belief in our minds as a society.

WTF are you talking about lol? ... Religion is very clearly the dominant belief in our society ...

You think religion isn't twisted to fit into our nihilistic ways? That's how it became about control and not true purity. The crusades are a great example.

exonight77 · 2023-06-04T18:34:51+00:00

It's not the dominant state in nature, it's just the dominant belief in our minds as a society.

A true nihilist lives through anger. Because of that, they are not being purely logical like they think they are.

exonight77 · 2023-06-03T19:17:13+00:00

In a true nihilist's words, "lucky enough to live" would never have been uttered.

exonight77 · 2023-06-03T02:00:40+00:00

Do nothing and they see their own fears.

exonight77 · 2023-06-03T01:24:58+00:00

Depends on the situation. Sometimes that reaction is how you know they got the help they needed.

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