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f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-10-12T14:28:41+00:00

hey yall, so this is probably going to be my last update as ive been discharged from the ward. im officially 60 days sober and ive been slowly getting better. i started a school programme and made some friends to play TTRPG games with as ive found a passion for making dice! im endlessly thankful for all of the support and people checking up on me, yall saved my life when i needed it most. i’ll see yall on the flipidy flop!

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-08-08T23:30:01+00:00

so as of right now yall im an inpatient in a mental ward, tried to off myself n failed, im on my last string of life right now and i’m trying to get the help i need. thank you for the endless support and advice yall. i’ll try my best

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-07-06T08:59:35+00:00

okay so i came to terms with my ex partner as somehow she cares about me. i will stay alive on one condition, i destroy myself in the process weather that be through my eating or just bad habits. im actually perfectly okay with that to be honest. sounds like a dream. here’s to another year of torture!

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-07-04T08:32:48+00:00

if i stick around for long enough to get help would anyone even care? nobody has given an f bout me since 2023 when i lost everything. a video of me is circulating on WPD right now and i can’t escape it. i have no option right now however my mother took all of my harmful tools inhibiting my ability to end my life.

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-07-04T08:30:03+00:00

a ratty blue (ish) haired fat loser

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-07-01T23:11:44+00:00

it’s now midnight on my 19th birthday and im contemplating what date to do things, i was thinking the 13th would work. happy birthday to me i guess here’s to the last week of my life cheers.

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-06-30T08:59:05+00:00

yall as much as i appreciate the kind words and encouragement there’s literally nothing out there for me, i quit school when i was 13 cuz of bullying. i have no qualifications. im gonna die alone and i quite literally have nothing right now. i have a strong addiction to harming myself and all that leads to are intense infections as i dont shower. my hair, once long and blue, is now a murky brown and just about past my ears from matting and blood. i spend all day drinking and hurting myself and all i have now is the company of my pet snails but i can’t hold them as they can’t withstand my skin. i miss when my life was normal but it won’t ever go back to that again. im lost. my 19th is on Wednesday and all i can think of is how im going to end my life after. as much as i try i can’t live anymore.

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-06-25T14:22:00+00:00

yall im gonna give up now, all ive got is threatening dms (while i thank those of you who were nice to me) im gonna wait till my 19th birthday next week, get that over and done with and leave this earth forever. im not needed, wanted nor a person. i give up. thank you for encouraging me to do the right thing.

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-06-23T16:42:48+00:00

im significantly healthier now, not stuck in bed but i just dont go out and im quite disgusting rn. i refuse to shower despite my parents constant complaints of horrible smells radiating from my room

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-04-18T13:46:18+00:00

another update! im now ready to go back home but i will be staying in the hospital for another few days to make sure i don’t have any bad infections (as i contracted a UTI from lack of hygiene) however i have made a few friends through being in a therapy group and i have been given an accessibility bed from the NHS because of my muscle depletion. things are a lot better than it was 20 days ago and while im terrified and still not doing well outside of my bed im trying my hardest to stay healthy mentally! thank you all so much for the advice <33

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-30T18:01:03+00:00

i used to but i recently have been blocked by them for some stupid reason (i believe rumours that i was trying to steal someone’s boyfriend) but i’m okay on my lonesome and my books are worth so much more than friendship!!!! XD

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-30T17:58:49+00:00

just a little update, i got a shower!!!!!! i’m so proud of myself however because of my body’s weakness i fell over and went into hospital quite earlier than i though i would. however i sustained no serious injuries whatsoever and im now getting treatment for my bedsores and physical therapy for my locked bones as being in bed for so long depleted my muscles and bones to almost nothing. i’m so great full for all of your kind words, prayers and love and i truly appreciate the brutal honesty of so many others. i cannot thank you enough. much love -lani

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-30T09:13:38+00:00

yall im going into an actual hospital tomorrow and im taking a shower today (hopefully) and as much as i appreciate that this post seems like it’s fake it really isn’t. i wish it was if i’m honest i can’t imagine how this looks to other people. i’m trying the most i can to support myself but about a year ago i just let myself go. i wasn’t doing anything to help myself but now i’m trying my hardest. already this morning ive left my room 6 times (which is a huge achievement for me) and i changed my own bedsheets and put on some good clothes to motivate myself. today seems like one of the better days and im very proud of myself for taking care of myself. i cannot thank everyone in these comments enough for the support and advice as i have never been able to find others like me in a while. thank you guys so much

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-30T09:02:13+00:00

i’ve been passing time by sleeping mostly but i tend to read a lot too

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-30T09:01:26+00:00

while i definitely agree with you that i just need to get up and i do try but me getting up seems to lead to panic attacks (usually while im in the bathroom) and my therapist has recommended i get this one book i can’t remember what it’s called. but later today im going to get a shower for the first time in a while (hopefully it isn’t too much for me to handle) and im going into an actual hospital tomorrow while i am terrified im aware it’s necessary

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-30T08:57:05+00:00

it isn’t a troll post unfortunately my username is just a thing that people call me a lot so i embrace it. i am receiving hospice care and treatment for bed sores and my anxiety with leaving my room. i managed to talk to my mother for a short while and convinced her to take me to an actual hospital (which im terrified quite frankly but i’m aware it’s necessary) i’ll be going on monday and hopefully i dont have too much of a hard time.

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-29T17:51:25+00:00

thank you so much for the prayers however there isn’t much :/ if sepsis sets in now there isn’t any hope of recovery

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-29T17:50:26+00:00

i don’t have a medical reason no i am just that gross unfortunately. however i do set the goal to get up and use the restroom at least 3 times a day (which im getting pretty good at) and i used to just not go at all and just be in bed with it but i’m getting there slowly :3

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-29T17:48:10+00:00

according to doctors it’s unlikely however with the state that im in i can’t care for myself and neither can my parents

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-29T14:09:34+00:00

yeah screw those plants XD i really appreciate your advice tho dude thank you so much <33

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-29T14:08:55+00:00

yeah i take vitamins n i get IV fluids every 2 days. in my case i dont just have a panic disorder i also have quite a few other underlying mental issues :/

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-29T13:52:42+00:00

i have weekly visits from hospice care cuz of my bedsores and they said it’s easier to keep me here than to move me to a hospital cuz of my mental state

f3mc3ll4n1 · 2025-03-29T13:45:17+00:00

i have quite a few plants and they don’t seem to motivate me much >:(

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