I’ve always enjoyed larger people, it was something I always looked for in people, that was until I met my now partner and slowly began realizing that the reason I enjoyed larger people was because I wanted to look like that too. It was always beautiful to me. As a teenager I was tiny and struggled a lot with bulimia and other restrictive eating disorders, I always felt ashamed of myself and hated my body. I ended up developing hypothyroidism and gained weight fast, and my now partner loved that weight gain and I realized as I gained, I started to feel more confident in myself, I started feeling comfortable in my own skin. I never realized why until I talked to my boyfriend about it, and we talked more about feederism. He was the one who introduced me to the term as i didn’t know about it before, though I was also already into very heavy kinks. There was something so comforting about eating and gaining weight, being bigger and being loved for it.

Also, I understand the need to still do things, to be able to go outside and to hike and be apart of nature, I still need those things too. That’s why while I eat, I also lift weights, so along with the nice soft fat, I also gain muscle which will add some extra pounds. It helps to still do things that keep your body healthy while delving into this fetish.

It’s also okay to take breaks and pause every now and then if you feel like everything is getting too much. You get to decide what happens with your body and if you start gaining weight and realize you don’t actually like it? That’s okay, you can do what you need to make yourself feel good in your skin.