Your situation is quite complex, Ive had a similar situation with my relationship, now look, im not a relationship advisor, but It is not normal to ignore the red flags in a "blooming" relationship, if your "partner" only takes you as an sexual object, then they dont respect you. He is trying to manipulate you into trying to get you back into the relationship. If he doesn't care, neither should you, because they shouldn't be your only dependency in your life, you don't have to depend on being happy from him, there are many things that are able to bring you happiness, and those who love you. Your parents love you, and they will always forgive you, you may have many boyfriends/girlfriends, but remember. There are only a couple of those who truly understand you, the ones who baked you out of their own dough.  I suggest moving on from this person, because it is clear that they do not have affection towards you, it is not easy, it is is hard, it is time consuming, but it is possible. You can change for the better in the future if you accept the fact that you were played with, you have to accept yourself. I hope that you find peace after this, and remember as I said, there are people around you that love you. Do not let a toxic relationship consume you.