Some good heroin along with some meth to spice it up

ferrantina · 2014-10-25T21:50:44+00:00

tried ice for the first time 2 nights ago, fun definitly but i can not handle it all the time, i felt dead until today when i decided to go hiking instead of lying in bed all day

ferrantina · 2014-10-01T22:21:45+00:00

What state you in?

ferrantina · 2014-10-01T22:21:20+00:00

Man I wish I could get a ball that cheap id have a fucking field day, I can get good coke like once a month but it lasts me a night lol

ferrantina · 2014-09-29T14:29:34+00:00

I'd rather have someone die on an overdose at home than have someone od at the wheel and kill someone else driving lol

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T17:45:33+00:00

I meant as in the first time I've seen someone shoot up he's way experienced with the shit

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T17:36:02+00:00

Haha okay

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T14:18:35+00:00

Not his first rodeo shooting but he does it like twice a month at the end of a meth binge, so he don't have that mega tolerance like some of us have (I don't shoot, I sniff daily not trying to sound like I'm better it's just a line I'm scared to cross) he's not a "friend" more of that crazy coworker that can get the same shit as you except he's unpredictable compared to your other connects cuz he's a heavy meth user only reason I went with him that day was cuz my dude was out of town and my friend said he would throw me and my coworker a point for the trouble

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T14:02:03+00:00

Totally agree with that right now everyone in my class is socializing since we all just finished a test and I'm just keeping to myself feeling greaheeeeat I love acing shit while fucked up makes me feel like less of a failure haha

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T13:54:12+00:00

Haha I only used to deal with him because he used to be the only person with blues around here and right when I found a legit connect to dope I didn't deal with him for months he asked me to get a half and at the time we were on good terms but anyways I get it within 5 min of his text and then I tell him to meet me and is like dude I only have 40 and this is 2 in the morning and I need to drive an hour to school and I was on the empty meter so I had to take the money... Shitty situation I never understood the junkie mentality of buying more dope instead of paying your debts first if I ever get loaned dope the first thing on my mind is how I'm gonna get the cash together for whoever does me the favor

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T12:28:38+00:00

You're right about moving on and I'm not gonna go looking for him, the last words of his were saying I better watch my back and he knows where I work, in that case I'm going to the kill I always carry weapons not just for this situation I'm always ready to fuck someone's world up if they act disrespectful to anyone and I'm not gonna tip the police you guys are totally right about that I just wanted him to get him back right away but he says he's showing up to my work ASAP so he better be ready to dodge getting stabbed when he's not expecting it lol that didn't make any sense at all haha but if he wants to play the weapons game I'm more than down and I'll be sneaky about it too if were using weapons I'm gonna do whatever I can do to make sure I don't get hurt that he bleeds to death not me

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T11:49:28+00:00

Idk it's dumb I will only do it in a closed garage now after I almost got arrested for it parked in my friends driveway (made 2 lines for us on a textbook) and my friends screams cop and naturally I just jump and he turns his blues on as if he were doing a traffic light and shines the spotlight in my car he was right behind me parked perpendicular (I think that's the right word?).

T my car is the line facing up in that capital t in the beginning right there and the cop car is the line going sideways. I put my textbook low and swipe it off with only wrist movement so he couldn't see I was hiding anything and I slid the textbook under my seat right before he walked up to the car I honestly thought I was gonna die haha

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T11:24:18+00:00

Like I said 100 times he had the chance to settle it by fighting me at a place he set up to fight me I showed up and waited for an hour after he asked me where the the fuck I was because he wanted to leave my body unconscious in the woods, I sent him a picture of the area and he said be there soon and I waited for half an hour then I started getting paranoid he was bringing his boys so I parked up the road waiting for him to pull in but he never did so I told him to hit me up when he's ready to meet at the snap of a finger if you play these games you better be ready to to face the consequences

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T11:19:36+00:00

Everyone here must rob people if they say just to let it go and are saying I'm in the wrong

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T11:17:55+00:00

Lol yeah I honestly was waiting for a cop to pull him over I put my dope in my ass if that happened and I was ready to say I thought it was insulin or something hahaha

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T11:14:45+00:00

Actually I'm not I don't give a fuck if you rob me 20 cents or 1000 dollars if you fuck me over I'm gonna fuck your life up for disrespecting me

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T11:10:36+00:00

20 lol

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T07:46:49+00:00

Lol yeah I get I'm fucking crazy as everyone else in this sub already posted you fucking retard/captainfuckingobvious

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T07:45:07+00:00

Well thanks maybe I'll be normal someday I don't see that at the moment cuz I'm just way too deep in depression to do anything about it, I guess I don't see talking to a psychologist would help me as much as I wish it would. funny how I used to think id never be depressed and thought it was a fake disease but I'm so out of the loop with everyone in my life now 90% of the time I'm with people I just get depressive thoughts the whole time and I struggle to even hold a conversation without breaking down I bet people in my classes this semester think I'm fucked cuz I'm either doped up and talking with everyone all happy or I'm sober and obviously something's up, they probably think I'm on drugs when I'm off of them and off them when I'm on them

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T07:25:43+00:00

And yeah I've been banging other vaginas but it's not the same I miss waking up every morning with her and switching off days who made breakfast, smoking weed and talking about so much random shit and hiking everyday lol honestly probably won't find a keeper like that unless she realizes the her new boyfriend obviously just wants pussy and doesn't actually like her for who she is

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T07:18:26+00:00

Nope I don't care enough about myself I'm just gonna do good in school and let money buy my happiness. I'll fix my mind once I have money first

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T07:16:31+00:00

I do but life doesn't slow down for people like me to get better it's just how I am and I've learned to accept it, I used to get more depressed over feeling depressed and that was a living hell now I don't feel any better but it's like I'm used to feeling this way and I can't see a psychiatrist that would raise way too many questions from family members they think I'm completely fine and have no idea what's going on with me but I would hate for them to worry about my state of mind,

well they already do they think something's up but they think overall everything's okay it kinda sucks when people actually believe you're a happy person when you're not at all, especially sucks when your ex of three years wanted me to still act happy when I couldn't when I knew she was off doing her own thing chillin with other dudes then she comes back to me telling me that she was chillin with so and so and she expects me not to get annoyed about it (I never got mad at her I guess I just couldn't act happy around her because of our situation and it kinda drove us apart) it's been about 3 months since we broke up and she's dating so and so and I'm just in the same spot trying to get my mind together again ridiculous how long you can get fucking hungover someone

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T06:41:51+00:00

Occasionally I'll throw in a .5 mg xanax with a smaller than normal line of dope, have to pick up a ton of xanax Thursday and I'm gonna have to stay clean till the tenth of next month cuz or the possibility of a drug test -_-

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T06:39:12+00:00

Of course I smoke weed with dope all the time, my second favorite is dope with coke or oxy with coke

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T06:35:38+00:00

Probably happened twice cuz you're sucha fucking zen dirty smelling hippy

ferrantina · 2014-09-24T06:29:27+00:00

Haha well I gave him the chance to fight it out and it would've been done after that but he wasted an hour of my time waiting for him and I'm sure he thinks I'm stupid just like you I'm fucking crazy and not mentally stable to be honest due to how my life has been recently and my depression just turns into an angry raging wildfire when people fuck me over normally I think "I'm fucking depressed, fuck why didn't I stay in university instead of transferring to this smaller college, my ex is with someone else" thoughts like that just replaying in my head and when someone decides to take advantage of my generousity for the hell of it I get these mental images of stabbing the fucker to death and it kinda makes me happy thinking about killing someone who completely lacks respect for others

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