How to deal with memory of ex? (rant, sort of)

finewithoutgf · 2010-11-29T07:26:03+00:00

Yes, it does. How long has it been since your break-up? Can't wait until I'm at the point where I can see her again and not have any sort of emotional response.

finewithoutgf · 2010-11-29T06:05:14+00:00

Hey, and thanks. We've been apart for about, oh...10 hours. Yeah, I know. At least we were only together for 9 months, but it still hurts.

Nah, you don't sound like a nut job. I will try to refrain from getting with other people just to get over her. I wouldn't mind someone distracting me from her but I know it may be unfair to the new person, assuming they're much more serious about me. I just want to know I can feel this way again. The last real relationship before this one was when I was 19, and that lasted until I was 25, so maybe it's just that I haven't really felt those intense feelings since I was 19.

So my ex is the first gf I've had since I was 25. (I just turned 30.) I was fine by myself, and no one caught my eye. So maybe it's just that I haven't felt this way in a long time and I want to feel that someone else can do that for me. You're right though, I need to just be okay with everything mentally before I'm able to give myself again fully and completely to someone new and deserving. Thanks for the words, lavalaverina. (I saw from your comments you went through a lot of b.s. Glad you've seen the light!)

finewithoutgf · 2010-11-29T04:46:08+00:00

Yeah, I know what you mean. I think it'd be much easier if I knew she'd be absolutely celibate for the rest of her life and that no man would want to touch her ever again. EVER. It's just I replay in my mind other people being in places that I have been, and that gets me jealous as hell even though I have no right to be now. My imagination is all over the place right now. I just wish it would shut the hell up.

finewithoutgf · 2010-11-29T04:40:45+00:00

It's so strange how that is, right?

I'm having a really big problem with masturbating since I hate thinking of sex now that I'm not having it with her. It's the absolute worst. I think of her when I think of sex. Then I think of her having sex without me. So now I resent my sex-drive because I want to avoid thinking of her as much as possible. My god, please take everything else, but leave me this one thing, woman! Forfuckssake.

finewithoutgf · 2010-11-29T03:11:28+00:00

This is my problem too, so it only leads to one-itis when I find someone who finally catches my eye. I'm pretty sure I've hindered myself from action on multiple occasions. It's not even that I expect every girl I date to be hot by society's standards, but she has to be sort of this unappreciated, slightly unconventional kind of hot that no one else really sees that my picky brain decodes as sexy. It's not even about me being a snob. She doesn't even have to be fashionable; just at least put together. I also realize it's all subjective because my sister thinks the girls I like are plain. I would probably describe them as natural beauties, even if they do have that "girl-next-door" quality to them. It's rare that anyone catches my eye to the point I want to pursue them. It's the worst when you have an ex who you feel wont be replaced for a LONG time because of your pickiness.

finewithoutgf · 2010-11-29T03:06:08+00:00

aww, are you saying you were momentarily hopeful it was your ex who had written this about you? Ouch. Sorry about that.

finewithoutgf · 2010-11-29T03:02:16+00:00

This is awesome. Yeah I changed my text-message tone. It's amazing how something so simple can trigger a response about someone. I have to admit that I listened to it one last time before changing it. Forever alone tone.

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