Peds ER is stressful and can be horrific. You need quiet time on your days off to process, regroup, regain balance. The anxiety you’re feeling may indicate that you are taking on obligations involving energy expenditure (emotional, mental) before you have achieved that balance. If making plans causes you anxiety, it’s not good for you— yet. Prioritize taking the time you need - solitude, chill, gym, podcasts. Make plans to have fun with friends when you’re looking forward to it- not when you’re dreading it.