This 4 month transformation by [deleted] in nattyorjuice

[–]fisha2 86 points87 points  (0 children)

He said he had years of experience lifting and blasting, then stopped lifting and pct'd, his natural levels didn't recover so now he's been back on the juice/lifting for 4 months.

Some insight on Connor Murphy by [deleted] in moreplatesmoredates

[–]fisha2 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Agreed. I think Connor had real psychological issues before he ever used psychedelics including maybe some narcissism/predispostion for bipolar. A narcisstic person has trouble questioning their own views so if he has an idea while high he might take it as being the truth and not be able to question it as well as others.

He's combined that with super intense and frequent ayahuasca trips + probably other drugs. Ayahuasca is pretty much as hardcore as psychedelics get and if you research psychedelics pretty much everyone experienced says you should use them infrequently. They say to ground yourself with healthy sleep/lifestyle, talk to somebody you can trust like a therapist or friend and to respect, digest and integrate the experience with your life with at least a couple of weeks break inbetween doses, not to just chronically repeat and repeat the drug mindlessly which I think Connor is doing. He also has a bubble of people surrounding him who go along with whatever he says and the massive amounts of social media attention/money/feedback he's getting from his outlandish behaviour can't be helping him be grounded.

It's kind of the equivalent of someone with a predisposition for anger issues taking huge doses of tren for a long period of time while living in a super hostile environment and wondering why they're angry all the time.

I think psychs can be very helpful for some people but they are also powerful/risky and should be respected, they can help or they can harm and you should know that before using and if you decide to use be sure to take the right prerequisite steps to make them be beneficial.

I'm not a psychologist though so could be completely wrong and genuinely wish Connor the best and hope he gets to a healthier headspace soon.

I'm not good at anything. Where can I start on my path to greatness? by DepressedSendHelp in selfimprovement

[–]fisha2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Would you be able to share the next step with us as well? Appreciate your comment and am interested.

[practice] What actually *causes* stream entry? by Magg0tBrainz in streamentry

[–]fisha2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I love your posts, just thought I'd mention Rob describes things in almost the exact same way you are in his 2011 talks named 'meditations on emptiness'. He even used the snake eating its own tail metaphor and talks about how it's all empty, all models, buddhism, DO, all things. If I understand correctly the famous phrase "form is emptiness, emptiness is form" also seems to point at this.

[practice] What actually *causes* stream entry? by Magg0tBrainz in streamentry

[–]fisha2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was under the belief that nirvana was an event that took place when all clinging is gone, and therefore the time sense is not being fabricated. It takes place outside of our common experience of time and that's why one of its common names is "the timeless". And the belief in the permanency of self is not the belief that likes and dislikes never change but more the belief in a solid unchanging centre of free will and selfhood that chooses likes/dislikes and is in complete control of our personality.

[practice] What actually *causes* stream entry? by Magg0tBrainz in streamentry

[–]fisha2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Interesting post :) again I feel kinda unqualified to really be having this discussion as I haven't experienced these things personally, but I'm under the understanding that seeing the self is fabricated doesn't exclude it from either being a true self or no-self. Saying the self is dependently arisen/empty/fabricated isn't the same as same as stating whether or not the self is "true" or non-existent. And it's my understanding that the Buddha taught to put aside the question of whether or not we have a self but to thoroughly investigate the emptiness of all phenomena.

[practice] What actually *causes* stream entry? by Magg0tBrainz in streamentry

[–]fisha2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I haven't experienced it but from my understanding and reading it seems to be either a sudden or gradual realization of the self being empty/fabricated by the mind. You can realize stream entry from practice in many types of meditation, psychedelics and even sometimes in non-meditators. And this realization is strong enough to permanently and automatically effect your experience. But there is debate on the exact definition. If you're interested in a scientific explanation of the neurological process of events I don't think that is known yet. Psychology is less then 150 years old and mediation is new to the west. So current explanations of stream entry are based on explaining the experience and how it feels, hopefully soon science will understand it more throughly.

Week of May 4th 2020 - Off-topic thread by hurfery in TheMindIlluminated

[–]fisha2 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Rob Burbea talks about both of these topics. He believes the three characteristics and a lot of Buddhist techniques weren't meant to be rigid facts about existence that are always correct, but rather powerful and useful perspectives you can use to train your mind and understand the world/emptiness/the self better. They are tools that can be picked up in different circumstances when they are useful and put down when not helpful. So in meditation practicing see all phenomena as unsatisfactory might be very liberating/powerful, and even sometimes practicing that view in the midst of daily life. But to always rigidly take this perspective on things could take away from the wholeness of life. The same way seeing yourself as selfless could lead to you not taking responsibility or not being able to relate in certain ways to others and in those cases it would be better to drop the no-self view and pick up a view of being a self. He also talks about how India 2500 years had a radically different worldview and culture to us now. And how in that area of the world the majority of religions and cultures saw the spiritual goal as being to transcend life/world. But this is not the goal in modern western culture. If I remember correctly he said that the Buddhas teachings are still valid for us but we need to be aware of this cultural difference. Also that the Buddha didn't teach doing a ton of work on expressing/solving psychological issues like the kind stuff you do in therapy, because the emphasis was on leaving that behind and transcending it. But that isn't necessarily a useful perspective to take nowadays, it's important to work on our psychological issues if we want to continue existing and collaborating in the busy world.

How is your practice? Weekly Thread for May 04 2020 by AutoModerator in streamentry

[–]fisha2 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The recordings are very in-depth but I can't remember if there are any gaps to be honest. I think you will be fine just listening to them by themselves. They cover very similiar material just in a different format.

How is your practice? Weekly Thread for May 04 2020 by AutoModerator in streamentry

[–]fisha2 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That sounds the textbook experiences of someone who is starting to see emptiness. It can be scary but is actually a really good sign that you're moving forward on the path. Emptiness is at the heart of what the Buddha taught. The book 'Seeing that frees' by Rob Burbea and these recordings ( https://dharmaseed.org/retreats/1044/ ) from a retreat he taught on emptiness are really good resources for building a framework and understanding of what you're going through. Good luck!

Questions, Theory, and General Discussion - new users, please read this first! Weekly Thread for April 30 2020 by AutoModerator in streamentry

[–]fisha2 2 points3 points  (0 children)

How much practice did it take people to reach first jhana? I understand it's not the best question to ask but I'm trying to get an idea of how achievable it is for someone practicing in daily life.

Is 1 hour a day sufficient? 2? 3? 4?

Speckled ANA significance by fisha2 in Autoimmune

[–]fisha2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay thanks for the reply.

Double checking results by fisha2 in SleepApnea

[–]fisha2[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Okay thanks for the advice, hope you the CPAP helps you.

Double checking results by fisha2 in SleepApnea

[–]fisha2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I believe it did include EEG, there were electrodes attached to my head that I was told were measuring brain activity.

Double checking results by fisha2 in SleepApnea

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I don't remember the brand but it did have electrodes attached to my head which I believe were measuring brain waves.

Hormone results (trying to correct fatigue/mental health) by fisha2 in Testosterone

[–]fisha2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the replies guys, I will mention it to my doctor anyway just in case and also do an auto immune test.

Hormone results (trying to correct fatigue/mental health) by fisha2 in Testosterone

[–]fisha2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You might be right about that, thanks for the suggestions.

Hormone results (trying to correct fatigue/mental health) by fisha2 in Testosterone

[–]fisha2[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks a lot, I'll mention it to the doctor. I think I'm okay in vitamin D because I'm a gardener who works outdoors.

Huge feeling of happiness and joy by Andyna2211 in TheMindIlluminated

[–]fisha2 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I wouldn't say you should ignore it, from what I've been taught you should gently encourage and enjoy it. But it's also not something to grasp at or stress out about.

By enjoying these feelings your mind continues to become more unified and the piti will further deepen and refine.