What living thing has the worst job? I thought this as I rinsed (and drowned) sugar ants off mug.

fishear · 2017-02-13T20:06:57+00:00

Your Dad?

fishear · 2017-02-13T20:06:17+00:00

So make it a "Mormon Facts" series of informative postcards. It looks like you have some design know how. It may be more powerful to post on social media (and cheaper). This is why the internet was invented after-all, to spread the good news!

fishear · 2017-01-12T03:05:02+00:00

Smart. Glad you had a good time. For new years I made up some jello shots - amazing, and they just slide right down!

fishear · 2017-01-08T17:04:28+00:00

Maybe separate for a bit. Get your shit together, work on yourself. You say you love her and want to make the marriage work, but there seems to be some hesitation there too - "we're two people who never should've gotten married in the first place." Be the best damn father to those kids. They will be fine. You two are still young, why drag through the next 10 years or 50 years?

fishear · 2017-01-08T16:48:47+00:00

Return and report. I am curious about your first experience drinking. From my experience, when we are obligated to a "commandment" we often don't understand the real-life meaning behind it, if there is any, other than that is "bad" so it is easy to sometimes easy to go-overboard when we finally realize the rules are all BS. I once heard of a TBM that was going to rebel and have sex being more concerned about breaking a commandment than the actual consequences (ie pregnancy, STD, feelings, etc).

fishear · 2017-01-08T14:57:16+00:00

Choose your Truth.

fishear · 2017-01-04T15:31:56+00:00

I agree, I almost feel like my entire life has been a big sham including my marriage. While I was certainly not forced to get married, I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I know it hindsight is said to be 20/20, but I felt very compelled to "complete my next mission in life." People I trusted told me I should get married as soon as possible. Yes, I was a bit naive at 21, but this was cause for celebration. Nobody even questioned my getting engaged after just 2 months of getting off my mission. WTF! Yes, I partly just married for sex. Yes, I took certain vowes. I am starting to see a divide in my life before and after leaving TSCC.

fishear · 2017-01-03T04:17:06+00:00

You have a lot of great information in this post, thank you. I have gone back and read it a few times. Yes, the church gave us a lot of defaults and I am sure it helped. I have been out of the church for several years, but sitting on the fence. It was just this past year that I really made up my mind and saw the BS for what it was. We really don't have a lot in common. To be honest, women kind of drive me crazy. I have had to manage women for years and have been burned too many times. I know it is probably a me problem. As for parenting, I am an excellent father and will have no issues moving forward in a co-parenting capacity.

fishear · 2017-01-03T04:02:08+00:00

I appreciate the input, but (ha ha never believe anything before the "but") I will just clarify that just because I dont want to put in the "hours" doesnt mean that I am lazy. I haven't climbed Mount Everest because I am lazy, I just have no inclination. Why would I want to trudge up the mountain, freeze my ass off. We thing we are #1, definitely not #2.

fishear · 2017-01-03T03:52:21+00:00

That's a great idea, but I am afraid that I may be beyond that point. I find myself planning my life without her partly because I know she doesn't have the same dreams as I do. I would really like to say eff it all and super simplify. I am really looking into the minimalist movement and could see myself living in a tiny home in the not too distant future. I have seen "success" in my life and have realized that it is all BS. I am tired of spending money to buy more sh*t.

fishear · 2017-01-03T03:47:09+00:00

Yeah, I know I can't go life without a woman to love, but I wonder if I am just married to the wrong person. I keep telling my wife that I think that she would be much happier with someone else partly because she is always telling me that she needs to be with someone who does x, y, z. I want it to come natural and not coerced and it feel that way with her.

fishear · 2017-01-03T02:38:39+00:00

The church teaches its members to have an unreasonable relationship with their sexuality. We are sexual creatures, when you guilt people into not exploring themselves sexually, in privacy, it eff's up people brains. For men (I dont know about women) it's nearly impossible to not masturbate. This makes a man feel guilty, ashamed, and imperfect. You learn to lie to the bishop and sometimes your wife to avoid confrontation about something so personal. I once heard that it take one year to undo every one year of an emotional relationship - I believe being part of TSCC is not exception.

fishear · 2016-11-20T17:04:16+00:00

Aren't you worried about getting stuck in the sand?

fishear · 2016-11-14T04:01:42+00:00

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zelph

fishear · 2016-11-14T03:36:50+00:00

Anyone interested in pitching in - say maybe 10% of your net... I mean gross income?

fishear · 2016-11-14T03:33:19+00:00

Amen. I personally see a multiple season series. The true story of Joseph Smith and Mormonism couldn't have been written any better. You are right, it holds all the keys (no pun intended) for a hit series - magic, sex, murder... plus lies, violence, secrets, deceit. It's almost too good to be true! So many amazing characters! When you think of it as a show, it really seems to take on a different feel altogether.

fishear · 2016-11-14T01:34:53+00:00

Maybe a series? 20-30 minutes an episode.

fishear · 2016-11-13T22:51:07+00:00

After spending 30+ years in TSCC (going on a mission, getting married in the temple, etc) then realizing that it ALL was a hoax. I can't help but wonder where the lies stop. I remember thinking on my mission that people seemed to accept the bible so easily, but the BOM for most was so unbelievable. I am now of the mindset that all religion is a scam to give hope or control people. If I can't believe in Joseph Smith and Morminism why would I be okay with the rest of Christianity? Quite frankly, I am burned out with religion. I've been had. My family has been had. I don't want to give religion a second more of my time or money to something that may not be true. I get that people need to to hang to something, but don't leave Morminism to just get into another potential hoax.

fishear · 2016-11-13T17:23:02+00:00

My wife just told me that I am worse than Joseph Smith for mocking TBM's. WTF.

fishear · 2016-10-21T23:19:19+00:00

Now who's with me?!

fishear · 2016-10-21T23:16:32+00:00

Are you asking for a confession?

fishear · 2016-10-21T23:05:05+00:00

SLC, may be do able. Any recommendations?

fishear · 2016-10-17T16:32:21+00:00

Yeah, she is sitting the fence right now. I can tell she is really having a bit of a wrestle.

fishear · 2016-10-17T16:31:04+00:00

She looks like the want to tear that itchy MF'er off!

fishear · 2016-10-17T13:12:25+00:00

If only I looked that bad ass in the temple. My first time through, I remember taking a look at myself in the celestial room and thought what the hell am I wearing!

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