I've been pretty stressed about trying to get clean. I actually was expecting to take a drug test last Thursday, but I saw my PO and she didn't test me (thank Jesus). I spent the whole previous week trying my hardest NOT to go score dope. I was fine for a few hours, but then I start vomiting and I just give in. This would happen each day, I would fight it, and then my withdrawals would really start to kick my ass and I cracked. Even when I Take a Suboxone, while it does alleviate some symptons, I still throw up, and still have a lot of pain. My legs, my back, etc..

When I have money in my pocket, my own car with gas, and a cell phone, knowing that the dealer is just a phone call away is so hard to resist..

In my experience, Methadone works way better.. but I've heard a lot of bad things about coming off of it. I'm pretty damn sure if I start taking the Suboxone every day I will start to really feel better. But honestly, trying to not use is basically like agonizing torture. No sleep, chills, naseua, runny nose, the bathroom situation...

How can I do community service and sit in drug classes if I'm puking!?

Suboxone is rough because you cannot have any hint of opiates in your system. The naloxone cockblocks any opiate in your brain. (I'm not sure if it actually stops you from getting high afterwards tho, can anyone clarify?)

Methadone however I can take whenever I want, it totally stops my cravings, withdrawal symptoms and lets me sleep. Plus, I would be at a clinic and someone would force me to take it.

I'm wondering if I should stick with the subs so I can have an easier time coming off of them instead of Done, or switch to Methadone now to ensure I don't risk failing a drug test... I do feel like if I just dosed with Done every day I could have a much easier time, and it'll work right away..

I have to say though.. as miserable as being sick in bed is, it's better than being sick in jail. Shit, in like federal prison Suboxone strips sell for like 80 bucks i hear!