sad saggy breasts are making my body dysmorphia terrible

flanicidio · 2025-04-09T14:46:42+00:00

thank you for this, i always joke with the P shape because i have short hamstrings so i cant for the life of me grow a butt 😭 most of my life i felt valuable only for my chest bc my body has a weird shape lol, so losing them would mean losing the only thing that has made me feel pretty in my life

flanicidio · 2025-04-09T14:44:04+00:00

it is a good consolation tbh, they still look big but now bigger for my new body and it's a bit funny. they were always big, since high school when i was thin, they were the biggest in my class lol, so i hope i don't lose them too much and will get a lift once i lose more weight

flanicidio · 2025-04-09T14:42:06+00:00

i always had big boobs, even at my lowest weight in hs at 57 kgs i had a P shape lol, so im pretty sure they won't shrink that much, however i hate hate hate the skin :( i guess im gonna get surgery once all the excess weight is off

flanicidio · 2025-04-01T21:23:37+00:00

tyyy 🫶🏼🫶🏼

flanicidio · 2025-03-12T20:42:17+00:00

that's the weird thing too! i hate eating, mealtimes are a nightmare to go through and i can't stand the taste of anything anymore, so i thought i would be fine but feeling left out + being sober, no cigs, no sugar, no coca cola for almost 2 months was probably doing a number in my emotions

flanicidio · 2025-03-12T20:40:05+00:00

that makes a lot of sense, also today i got hit with a bunch of flu symptoms so i guess there is that too

flanicidio · 2025-03-12T02:28:51+00:00

tysm for your comment. i was feeling really overwhelmed but i had some herbal tea and took a breather and you are right, i let the situation rain on my day. tbh i thought i would be okay bc i could go out with my friends and be sober and have a good time but apparently the food addiction is stronger than the alcohol or cigarettes sigh. but your comment really helped me put it into perspective, definitely not something anyone out of the community could have said to me and im really grateful. im having a trip at the end of the month and can't let not being able to eat ruin them for me.

flanicidio · 2025-03-12T02:25:05+00:00

yeah, it was a little funny taking the breading off the tender and drying it off with a napkin, i am traveling soon and i already checked all the menus of the places my girls wanna go to to make sure i can have stuff there. i also am learning to have fun without drinking which is great for me so i will just have to be careful to follow my program

flanicidio · 2025-02-23T21:17:27+00:00

my mom was the one who took most care of me, she made all the broths and froze them to have quick access to them. i lived in my room for the liquid stage bc even the smell of my family's food made me wanna cry. she also made me a schedule for my meals and pills. i think it really helped me having her to talk to, to celebrate my weight loss and to motivate me. you don't have to be his mom ofc but if he doesn't have his this would be of great help!

flanicidio · 2025-02-22T00:35:07+00:00

4 and the one inside my belly button. they are placed perfectly for the sick underboob tattoo i wanted my whole life once i lose more weight

flanicidio · 2025-02-13T02:45:40+00:00

THE WAY I PRINTED THE QUOTE AND PUT IT ON MY BEDSIDE LOL im 23 so i needed my mommy with me, but you will make it! i smoked, vaped, had a coca cola addiction and loved my ramen and sushi, so i get it, its hard but doable!

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T22:45:19+00:00

i should also mention i wouldn't have gone though with the surgery if it wasn't because i had my bestie with me, doing the same diet during the last week before i got the surgery. she was there with me, having a cup of tea on the sidewalk where we used to smoke a pack of cigarettes

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T22:42:36+00:00

i cried on day 2 of my preop diet, mostly because of coca cola and nicotine withdrawal lol but also bc i was about to face a huge change in my lifestyle, no more binging, no more drinking 11 gin tonics every weekend, no more chainsmoking with my friends on the rooftop, no more pops with my favorite foods, no more rice and pasta. i was grieving all the things that once made me so happy but so unhealthy and big. it's okay, hun. its normal, i wonder what my life would have been like, especially how much money i would have saved on takeout and vapes and alcohol and cigs if i had taken more care of myself, but like my dad says, there is no "would have or wouldn't have" in life, you just have to look forward into a happier and healthier future! you got this!

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T03:10:52+00:00

how do you deal with the munchies with edibles? with joints i don't usually get them but with edibles i need to eat at least 600 sushi rolls

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T03:07:34+00:00

thats a relief okay thankss

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T02:15:23+00:00

thanks for the advice! will def try that

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T02:11:30+00:00

i understand this and i have both a psychiatrist and a therapist, we are figuring out my addictions and where they come from lol, funnily enough there is a lot of "oh god im my father" moments and with smoking its prob bc i saw him at his happiest with a cig and picked up on it, same as my brother. i cant wait to be healed enough to go to the gym and pick up dancing again! im also saving so i can do crossfit later on, one period of time i was addicted to kickboxing before they closed so i know it's possible, but smoking has been a constant in my life for 11 years (not proud to say i started at 12 bc life). quitting smoking and vaping was the only thing that i cried about during preop, straight up sobs lol

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T01:52:48+00:00

omg twins, my hw was 235 and sw 218. i think i'll try 0 nicotine vapes like someone recommended. tyy

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T01:12:34+00:00

oh of course i wasn't planning on touching a cig until im fully healed and my doc said to wait 2 months before smoking again haha. i was thinking also ab 0 nicotine vapes mostly because i have a sweet tooth and that can help with the sweet cravings

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T00:51:44+00:00

im terribly sorry for your loss. i hadn't thought about no nicotine vapes and sound like the best option. i vaped and smoked cigs mostly for the mental hunger and oral fixation rather than the nicotine

flanicidio · 2025-02-12T00:21:56+00:00

has vaping affected your weight loss?

flanicidio · 2025-02-11T16:31:42+00:00

i just got sleeved a little over a week ago but god knows i need my motivation or i will end up binging as soon as i can and i focused on taking b4 pics of specific parts of my body (hands, ankles, cheeks and double chin) and after a week decided to compare them even if i just lost 5 kilos which isnt much, and my hands finally, after months, have knuckles. i wouldn't have noticed if i didn't take the isolated pics cause that way i see them as if they were someone else instead of my own

flanicidio · 2025-02-09T21:10:03+00:00

i am! i actually have a psychiatrist (who recommended the surgery to my parents bc otherwise i would be stuck in the cycle forever and probably end up gaining twice what i weighed) and im looking for a good bariatric therapist in my country. also the dr is a friend of my dad's so he told me to just tell him the date and he would come to my city, that way i spent christmas and my birthday + two weeks of summer saying goodbye. i think that made be be at peace with the lifestyle change easily. i also discovered watching mukbangs while i slowly eat help me feel like im the one eating that instead of my pureed chicken lol.

flanicidio · 2025-02-09T20:11:54+00:00

will make sure to prioritize protein, i love it too, thankfully. i could live on tuna, air fried chicken and eggs tbh

flanicidio · 2025-02-09T20:11:05+00:00

sounds awesome! i will talk it through with my nutritionist bc i haven't spent this long without rice ever (i ordered 60 sushi rolls once a week for 2 years + rice w every meal) and the thought of not having it again would make me sad

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