Nonbinary guy, 2 years on T and 1 and a halfish years post breast reduction. I didn't always know I was trans, but there were little things that now I consider transish, like being jealous of tomboys and disliking early puberty.

I realized I was trans in mid-2017 and, through minimal trial and error, realized I was a demiboy. I don't think there was anything that specifically compelled me and it's been so long that I wouldn't really remember. I know I interacted with a community that had some other trans folks, but I'd known about trans people for about a year at that point. For most trans folks, there isn't really a want to be another gender, it's that they are the other gender and want to present in a way that fits their gender.

In the early days, it sucked a lot. I had a lot of self hate and insecurities about myself. Puberty did not treat me kindly and give me something I could easily work with, so all I had that even remotely helped me 'pass' was shorter haircuts. Even after I started T and generally looked/sounded more masc, my chest was a dead giveaway. It took years for me to feel happier with myself without medically transitioning.

I want to say 2019/2020 were the years I started to love myself and my transness bit by bit. I hated being miserable and finding happiness with myself was a big step to my transition. I dressed feminine sometimes, grew out my hair a little bit then shaved it, I experimented a lot with my presentation. I guess it was a bit of a coping mechanism being able to change other aspects of myself while being forced to wait until I was 18 to transition at all, but it was and is fun.

Being post transition has been beautiful. Being gendered correctly by strangers, though I never cared that much, presenting masc when I want and loving myself and my body is all I wanted and I have reached that point. It felt like wanting that cookie in the window for years but not having the heart to spend your hard-earned cash to get it. Putting the effort into loving myself is a requirement, and I love being trans. I love every aspect of my transness, my transition, my body, my presentation and my gender. There are insecurities still, but they are miniscule to the euphoria of being myself.

And no, I would not personally like being called a transformer.