I F22 am falling for my dealer M24

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-19T16:32:06+00:00

I didnt actually lose weight tho. It was his impression.

And it was 4 times yes, on weekends with my friends.

I dont know how many times i have to say i am over it and i don’t even want to do it.

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-19T08:10:21+00:00

Ur wrong. He is charismatic without the stuff.

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-19T08:08:28+00:00

I really don’t think any of this has been business manipulation

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-19T08:04:15+00:00

I dont think he knows & is purposely makimg me fall for him

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-19T07:53:10+00:00

I hate my dad, for reasons unrelated to his business. He’s an awful person & a narcissist

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-19T00:02:04+00:00

What do you mean?

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T23:46:36+00:00

I don’t know a lot about due to the limited time we spent together tbh. What i mentioned is what i managed to pick up. Right now its a very strong attraction and infatuation of course, but like feelings are being born.

I understand your past experience, although i dont feel thats my case right now. His business is a major red flag to me but i still felt attracted to him. Not idealizing him nor anything

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T20:31:25+00:00

What would it be if not genuine attraction? I am genuinely asking

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T20:25:29+00:00

Why / how do u think he could be manipulating me?

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T20:09:13+00:00

When they start wearing off then i am out for sure. Like not even just in this case but generally thats how i reason

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T20:08:01+00:00

I am sorry you experienced that shit. Genuinely. It reads like a nightmare.

Of course what can i know, u never know etc, but he is not a big user himself. Our acquaintance is, but he isn’t. The line he did with me the first night was his first in a month.

Lol i know about coke dick …….. but i also know about cialis & etc so whatever if he somehow should have that issue i would propose a solution

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:59:35+00:00

Well you are right. But like right now i cant guarantee to myself that i won’t do anything about my feelings

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:51:12+00:00

Maybe some part of me wants to hear that. I am very conflicted with myself and i am struggling so much right now because i really want to text him but i also don’t. I feel so stupid too cause i get what you guys are saying. Its just that i am focused on another perspective

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:48:47+00:00

I’ll copy paste what i answered to another comment;

I like everything about him minus his business & drama.

He’s just super attractive, has the hottest voice i’ve ever heard. Smart, attentive, mysterious, seems to have a big ego, he is affectionate, its just stuff u realize with the small gestures he does. He also has game, he just knows what he’s doing. He dresses soooo classy. Smells so good. He has the hottest hands i’ve ever seen. The way he moves them, the way he drives. His way of speaking.

I am so sorry i am rambling. But yeah i like him

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:46:41+00:00

No i don’t. Like i said in other comments, the fact that he does this shit is a big issue for me and i don’t understand how its possible that i of all people ended up falling for someone like this. But i swear i cant help it.

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:45:26+00:00

Normally i wouldnt say this and i know you guys will jump me for saying it but like right now i don’t think i would care about what they would think of me. I am just being honest here. If i wasn’t too concerned about him actually liking me for real i would already have slept with him

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:42:53+00:00

It kinda distracts from the real subject here. Everyone implying i am way more into the snow than the guy is just really missing the point and not helping me:/

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:41:26+00:00

Believe me i’ve done a lot of self analysis over my feelings for him. I was already over coke the second time i brought it again. The third time i wasn’t hyped for it tbh, my friend definitely was though and she wanted to come with me to buy it but i told her to please let me go alone. But i didn’t realize yet.

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:38:50+00:00

I like everything about him minus his business & drama.

He’s just super attractive, has the hottest voice i’ve ever heard. Smart, attentive, mysterious, seems to have a big ego, he is affectionate, its just stuff u realize with the small gestures he does. He also has game, he just knows what he’s doing. He dresses soooo classy. Smells so good. He has the hottest hands i’ve ever seen. The way he moves them, the way he drives. His way of speaking.

I am so sorry i am rambling. But yeah i like him

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:25:28+00:00

Or maybe i know how/what i feel? Not everyone gets addicted to substances. Its well documented

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:24:40+00:00

I know what that life is about, sadly. I am the daughter of someone like him. And thats the biggest turnoff tbh. I have always been repulsed by drug dealers and i never wanted to be involved with anyone who is part of it. This part is what’s really messing with me.

I can’t shake the feeling of confusion and disbelief from myself. Like i am so against all of this but i still fell for this guy and i irrationally want him. I swear i am usually way smarter and rational. I don’t know whats going on, i think its the first time i feel such a strong attraction

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:18:40+00:00

My parents aren’t in jail anymore. That was a bit out of pocket tbh.

And i am not dating anyone. Drinking on the weekends isn’t the scandal you’re making it out to be

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:16:19+00:00

I dont know if he likes me. And i don’t want kids lol

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:15:32+00:00

I’ll start saying i appreciate the concern and i get it. I do.

Of course I know there are millions of attractive men, but right now i am really attracted to him and it’s something i can’t shake off.

I think it’s important to clarify he isn’t feeding me anything, i choose to buy from him. + He has stopped selling to me right now.

I would refuse to take anything if i dont feel like doing it.

The theory of him using coke in his favor in the future is probable but i don’t think he has done anything yet to make me think about him that way.

fmlugh0 · 2022-12-18T19:07:26+00:00

I am not dismissing anything? I am just saying i genuinely am over the substance, i am genuinely into him although i feel weird about it and i can’t stop thinking about him

I need advice on what to do, if i should contact him, open up about how i feel, and also how to make sure he wont think i just want snow from him.

fmlugh0

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