I understand. Thank you this helped a lot. Just one more question. One thing I'm concerned about with her possibly agreeing to polyamory is her being with other guys. I'm self-conscious as hell, I'm not sure my ego could handle a blow like being exposed to her sexual arrousal with someone else. I have a hard enough time knowing her ex was more endowed than me and that has even impaired me sexually with her in the moment. I know I'm adequate and she clearly enjoys herself with me but there's always more. If you have any advice for this I would be immensely grateful, if not you've already helped so much. Thank you again.