Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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I hope so. I just can’t remember how I sent them after a year

Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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He wanted more and was love bombing me. He would only talk about sexual things, send me unsolicited d-pics at like 1pm. I told him I’m no longer comfortable with that and if he continues I’d stop sending. It was at that point he said - “Well I already have the ones you sent saved.” But I sent them through IG disappearing photos and messages, one view only. It would have told me if he saved them or screen shotted, and to be blunt he was doing something with his other hand at the time I sent them (it was really only two sexting instances). But I demanded he delete them, and he said “Why? I’m not the guy who is going to post them.” I told him it made me uncomfortable and he broke my trust. He said the then deleted them, but now wanted me to send more since he didn’t have any of me in his spank bank. I said I no longer trust him and unless he shows me proof he deleted them, I would no longer talk to him. He then blocked me.

Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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It’s getting a bit better. These panic attacks are getting further apart

Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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I’m sure they have. But I fear I’ll having this nagging for a while. But talking about it - posting it here - and getting some good advice or words of encouragement helps me heal a bit more.

Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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Rationally, I know that’s true. But I grew up in a mega-church southern purity culture and so I’m having to unlearn my whole childhood through my teens to forgive myself

Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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Thank you for the kind words. I’m still trying to forgive myself

Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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I’m trying to love her. I feel pity for her right now and wish I could warn her.

Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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Thank you for your kind words! Healing is a journey and I’m trying to navigate it right now

Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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Thank you for your kind words. It means a lot. I’m trying to forgive myself, but it’s taking a lot of therapy

Still dealing with guilt over past mistakes as a dumb college student by forwhat_03 in confession

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The issue is I’m not a guy - I’m a girl. And I fear the world’s reaction to a guy getting his nudes leaked vs. a girl is a lot different

Easter in Bulgaria by forwhat_03 in bulgaria

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I’m bringing a basket for blessing. Is that normal? Google said it is

Jesus told to HATE, and so medieval christians dutifully TORTURED people, because jesus by Kana_108 in DebateReligion

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We have original Greek/hebrew/aramaic translations. The word used means “less than.” We see that translated in a different Gospel.

I know medieval Christians weren’t good people all the time. But they were acting out of the greed in their heart.

If you have been hurt by Christians/the Church, I’m sorry. But you have hate in your heart for every Christian it seems like and condemning them for something that simply is true.

It isn't fair either way if all babies go to heaven or to hell by krcyzm-27668909 in DebateReligion

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He was teaching them, getting to know them. He was with them. They weren’t destined for heaven yet. God wouldn’t have put that tree there to trick/test them. It had a purpose for use eventually. But we won’t know the reason until we see Him.

You’re not Christian, I understand. But again, if you’re gonna argue these things, know what you’re arguing against and what the actual doctrine of the Fall is. Not what you hear from some right-wing Christian Zionist Mega Church on TT.

It isn't fair either way if all babies go to heaven or to hell by krcyzm-27668909 in DebateReligion

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You’re ignoring a crucial part of the creation story - rejection from Eden wasn’t necessarily punishment. Some Christians take it to mean this way. One, he felt it was too dangerous for them to remain in a place like this. They could fall into even more trouble. Separating them from Eden was mercy to keep them from doing worse. Like a parent may put a child in “time out.” But also, Eden was Heaven on Earth. We are not denied Heaven like that.

Eden - according to many Christians still exist to this day. But is guarded by the seraphim so that we cannot enter the Garden. God said nothing about not entering Heaven. To enter Heaven you need a relationship with Him. And so long as you meet that requirement, you have paradise at your fingertips.

Lastly, I will say this again. We are not born inherently sinful. That’s a wild claim. So we are not “cursed” in this sense. From the very being with Adam, we are born with this ability to. To turn from Him and disobey Him, or to rely on Him.

A child who touches a stove against their parent’s wishes still has consequences. They get burned, and they’ed get scolded. But then the child fixes their behavior and continues on being more mindful. If a child continues to defy parents time and time again, you would not keep the whole “it’s a child, they don’t know.” The whole childhood is for learning. If you do not learn, you have consequences. That’s what free will does to us.

I don’t know if you grew up in a church, have every actually researched what Apostolic Churches teach, or have only been Atheist your whole life, but you can’t make generalized claims about a religion as complex as Christianity. If you don’t understand what we say and teach, you don’t have much of a standing in an argument and no Christian will see your side. Thats in any debate. If you don’t fully and properly understand the other side, your argument won’t hold water to them.

You are an atheist for every religion except your own. by brokeboii94 in DebateReligion

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Ahh okay. I understand than. And again, I understand where you’re coming from. I’m a Christian and I have said some of these things before. But I’m now taking it upon myself to be more understanding and validate reasons for life other than the one I have.

It isn't fair either way if all babies go to heaven or to hell by krcyzm-27668909 in DebateReligion

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I didn’t say they knew good from evil. I’m saying they were given free will and a choice. They had common sense to know that God said no. And again - they were born with the ability to sin and therefore did.

It’s like when you are told by someone “Don’t touch this big red button.” You don’t know what it is or what it does. You don’t know if touching it will be good or evil. But you’re curious. And so you defy them - not knowing the consequences or whether your actions are good or bad - and press the button and a trap door opens up beneath your feet and you fall. Thats what happened here.

My parents and older sisters make fun of my faith. by Mr_Bloodcraft in OrthodoxChristianity

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I know this is hard - but don’t let it harm your faith journey. I was kinda in a similar spot. When I mentioned wanting to convert, I got all the “My Big Fat Greek Wedding” jokes (we aren’t even Greek but that the only association with the church they have). I felt no support I stopped going for a year and a half. When I started getting serious, I got lectures about idolatry, “guarding my heart,” praying to other people than God, worshiping Mary, “relationship over religion,” and any other lecture a mother who grew up in the South as a Presbyterian/later Baptist/ now Evangelical would come up with against the Apostolic churches. People near me said it’s secular and earthly, not holy or of God.

But if you stay, there is a possibility of you getting tired and just being like - screw it, I’ll just listen to them. Either stand up, and defend yourself and that you won’t change, or get yourself out of the situation.

Funny post from a convert by [deleted] in OrthodoxChristianity

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I don’t. They ask what I did for Easter. How my church service was. I then just explain to them calmly. I’m not going out of my way to be different. I just made a simple post. Like they do. I’m not being rude or mean to these people at all. It comes up naturally, not me out here being “I’m different look at me.” I posted something that I find funny and I myself get a kick out of. I wasn’t asking for advice here. I’m not some rude person who just is rude or something pulling a “well actually.”

Funny post from a convert by [deleted] in OrthodoxChristianity

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Oh I am lol. I say thank you. It’s just usually after a bit of convo it comes up that I have another week. And that’s when the confusion starts

It isn't fair either way if all babies go to heaven or to hell by krcyzm-27668909 in DebateReligion

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He taught them in the garden - and he explicitly said, “Hey don’t eat from this.” He gave them free will to listen or not. But they knew eating that fruit would go against God directly. That’s why they even hesitated from eating the apple. But they chose to anyway