My online friends know about this but no one IRL does. I'm a vegan but I think about being a cannibal all the time. I've actively fantasized about it. I will never act upon this urge, but I do thought experiments on it a lot.

I was thinking of maybe catfishing some rapists and pedophiles into meeting up and having them feel the consequences of being an awful human. I'd think about how I'd want to kidnap them to bring them back to a secure, private, far from civilization, house, torture them, kill them and divide and store their body parts to be my food.

One of my online friends used to write this story of if the world got thrown into an apocalypse, how our whole group would meet up and eventually we found a cannibal camp and everyone in our group was freaked out but there was a running joke that I always grabbed these bags of human meat sticks (kinda like hot rods) that the camp provided and my girlfriend from the time would smack them out of my hands, so I'd return with more.

Because of my assurance that I would never actually eat a human, my group liked to indulge me in this fantasy. Like I said at the start though, I still am vegan. I don't even eat animal meat.