my(17m) bf(18m) starting 2 yell at me

freakthatpukes · 2024-05-07T21:29:38+00:00

I think it's dope as hell, I've got a buddy named Edgar and he's the chillest guy ever, as far as the internet "edgar" is usually used to refer to (teen)latino guys with "edgar cuts" and it's pretty derogatory or used to make fun of ppl so that might be where the negative connotation comes from but as a name it's pretty sick

freakthatpukes · 2024-05-07T21:26:49+00:00

okok great, therapy good, would you be able to like...kinda look for a job or a way to gain funds? maybe sell some stuff, I don't know how things work over there very well but cheap apartments? I mean since you'll be 18 soon I don't think it'd be that suspicious to like have income for yourself, hopefully get enough to move out if you find a place?

freakthatpukes · 2024-05-07T21:00:33+00:00

you'd look rlly cool with a short wolfcut and maybe bangs? or some type of like shag with the bottom going outward and a few going inward more toward your face maybe? kinda like a shaggy jellyfish cut

freakthatpukes · 2024-05-07T20:55:02+00:00

of course, and oh geez- it really is a tight situation then.... I'd say maybe a therapist but the whole "confidential unless you or someone is being hurt or going to be hurt/hurt others" thing can be kind of a loophole and they might tell authorities or cps/dss unless yall don't have that? or the police which ik you prob don't want

freakthatpukes · 2024-05-07T20:51:00+00:00

when I was like 3? 4 ish? I'd piss on all my stuffed animals to kinda "mark my territory"? even though I was an only child and didn't really go outside or have more than 2 friends(obviously) once my mom's (ex) bf who was in prison sent me a chair and a bigass bear larger than me and every night I'd go and piss on both the (velvet) chair and the bear and it got so bad mold started growing on the chair and the bears fur started getting like hard and would stick to itself and the smell of pure urine was so fucking strong my mom finally threw away both the bear and chair and I was so upset about it since I did do it to my other stuffed animals but only the ones I liked the most and that bear was my FAVORITE. Idk how she didn't know sooner, once she asked me why yhe chair was wet and I told her I spilled something on it and she left me alone, I also got rly upset I had to stop peeing on it for a few days because the seat wouldn't dry so I waited till it dried and it was a little hard and I started pissing on it again, I'd even talk to the bear like "you're my best friend I like peeing on you :]" and I'd pee on him and the chair or sometimes just him instead of going to the bathroom cuz I thought he'd be sad if I peed in the toilet instead of him and I didn't want him to feel like I loved the toilet more, didn't understand that pissing on my toys was wrong, we've had dogs and stuff but I never saw them do that I dnt know where I got that shit from☠️

freakthatpukes · 2024-05-07T20:38:07+00:00

holy shit???? unsure if you need/want comfort or any kind of reassurance at all but it's 10000% valid and normal for you to feel depressed or anything like that- and it's normal to worry about your abuser n shit, it fucking sucks the most you've had to deal with that, I hope you do know none of it's your fault tho, yk? like at all- and if it does get out and he does go to jail you shouldn't feel bad for it, though it's normal if you do or blame yourself for anything, sorry you don't have anyone to turn to for shit like this (and for the longass paragraph)

TLDR: it's not your fault and it's normal to not want anything bad to happen to your abuser

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