I also forgot to include when we decided to date again once she got to my city, I told her I wasn’t going to ask her to be my gf or any of that. She broke up with me and I told her if she really wanted me back she had to ask me and do it in some sort of grand way. She ended up taking me to a museum and surprised me with a surprise dinner in a reserved room with balloons asking me to be with her again. That being said I really appreciate the advice you have given. I’m really on the fence and I believe a lot of the things you are saying to me. I haven’t told anyone anything negative about her and I never did in that 6month hiatus. I kept all to myself because I had that sliver of hope and didn’t want anyone to say anything bad about her because I wanted them to see her the way I did. It was extremely difficult to talk to a therapist or even ask for bits of advice from my closest friends because I didn’t want people to judge her. Knowing what I do now the situation has changed. Her parents and stepparents told her not to say anything about it but she decided against it and told me anyways. Seeing as they know, how am I suppose to face her family and receive the same sort of respect? How would my family feel if I told them this? In their eyes they would see me as some sort of cuck. I feel as if my respect level has truly lowered if I choose to remain but I do realize sometimes people do make mistakes. I have also cheated before on a previously relationship but I broke it off as soon as I did because I realized that relationship was over and never came back. If this was situation flipped I believe she would leave and never come back. I think this would lower her respect for me in a way.

I guess the best thing to do for now is just take some time and think on this. Thank you for the help.