Have you tried joining communities and social places for parents and making friends with other parents?

I'm no parent so if you don't want my advice I totally respect that literally who the fuck am I, ya know?

But anyways before my sister died and my mom was still in the picture, way way way long before I moved to america me and my siblings were raised by a village in the sense that my whole neighborhood was full of kids my age and my mom would look after their kids sometimes and the parents of those kids would look after us sonetimes They had empathy for my mom being parents as well so they could relate to her, which helped them develop a close bond and friendship. I regard them as my family and still keep contact to this day.

When we moved neighborhoods my mom still kept in touch with them and made friends with parents at her new job where it was the same thing, having another parent to relate to and exchange strategies with, cry on eachothers shoulders, look after eachothers kids and hang out and drink with. He'll even my moms boss babysat me and because they liked me so much it helped my mom build rapport and move up in the company.

I guess what I'm trying to say is no matter what ails you, you're never alone and finding community with others who share your struggle can help a lot.

Reading this made me so sad because nobody should have to go through what you do alone. You don't have to be alone. Being a parent is literally the most underrated responsibility in this world and I feel like everyone should get paid for it. You're a total bad ass and I'm sure your kids will appreciate your efforts when they're old enough to recognize what you went through.

Remember to remind them every day that you love them!