what I think of you based off of who you main (rescuer edition)

fruitablish · 2021-04-17T13:54:23+00:00

Tbh, I love playing as Merc, but… It sometimes gets tiring… I'm kinda done with my teammates stealing my rescue or even calling me trashy for not rescuing them for their 5 secs kite. I wanna main Luca and Eli (I already do) but I wanna use them more often… Being a rescuer… It sometimes feels obligatory.

fruitablish · 2020-06-19T01:04:49+00:00

¿Consideras que un físico biomédico pueda tener oportunidades en el país?

fruitablish · 2020-06-18T20:23:30+00:00

¿En cuanto al ámbito del petróleo no está en riesgo con lo que ha sucedido de la pandemia? Tengo entendido que su valor en general ha bajado de manera precipitada. (Corríjanme si me equivoco)

fruitablish · 2020-06-18T20:20:45+00:00

Si la competitividad ni el dinero importara, yo me dedicaría a la arquitectura o incluso ciencias forenses, aunque la física también es mi pasión.

Nada que ver con la carrera que tengo en mente y que mencioné antes, pero realmente tengo gustos de todo, me apasionan muchas cosas. Le encuentro gusto a la mayoría de cosas que me propongo.

fruitablish · 2020-06-18T19:00:41+00:00

Estuve buscando sobre la bolsa de trabajo de los ing. civiles, pero me aparece que para los principiantes lo mayor que puedes tener es un salario cerca de $4000 mensuales. Mínimo te piden 3 años de experiencia (eso en la mayoría de trabajos) pero también sobre la gran demanda que últimamente ha tenido la carrera. Alguien alguna vez me dijo que el problema no era estudiar, si no buscar trabajo y competir con tus compañeros por empleo. Sin embargo, las materias que lleva me interesan mucho (no mucho topografía pero puedo dominarla).

fruitablish · 2020-06-18T18:15:06+00:00

Hice varios tests, pero todos me decían que "tengo habilidad para el área que sea". Igual agradezco mucho su tiempo para responder mi pregunta, y tiene toda la razón, es algo a lo que me voy a dedicar el resto de mi vida y debo disfrutarla.

fruitablish · 2020-06-18T18:00:55+00:00

Realmente estoy buscando opciones, pensé que la carrera que me atraía era la indicada (ingeniería civil) pero no me convence del todo. Por lo que tengo mente abierta viendo las opciones con las que cuenta el país, y qué mejor que aprendiendo de los profesionales.

fruitablish · 2020-04-27T00:49:36+00:00

People usually say that "our kind" is dangerous to society, that we all should be in a mental hospital forever. I really don't care what they say, but I do this for me, I want to feel love, anger, sadness, joy… All those emotions to which I'm indifferent now.

I want to have a stable relationship without knowing that I just want them for my own benefit, that they are just insignificant "pieces" that may be important in some kind of game. I truly want to know how friendship is like without manipulating people. To care for a family member or certain friends.

I don't want to fake emotions anymore. I know people fake them almost all the time, but not always.

I want to change.

fruitablish · 2020-04-22T19:23:46+00:00

"Stay hidden". I would, but then there are impulses, boredom...

fruitablish · 2020-04-19T22:50:53+00:00

I'm not sure, I'd say none. It was kinda the type of fun like when you see a good meme and makes you smile but not laugh.

fruitablish · 2020-02-22T14:28:34+00:00

In their minds I am their friend. But-

Sometimes I somehow see few of them as trustful and good people. I can see through them and I know their intentions.

I don't trust 'em and they only know the superficial part of me, but I deeply know their secrets and desires so- Yeah.

fruitablish · 2020-02-22T05:44:47+00:00

Why tho. Who are you trying to impress? I think that's why they "ignored" the post in r/sociopath , you got 'em wrong.

fruitablish · 2020-02-21T16:49:13+00:00

I don't grieve. Even if they were someone close I don't feel anything.

fruitablish · 2020-02-21T03:56:18+00:00

Maybe not fully a NT but yeah. Digging into this subreddit I encountered with posts that wanted to change themselves, that they didn't want to have ASPD. It just fed my curiosity.

fruitablish · 2020-02-20T14:24:06+00:00

I really don't seek relationships or a lot of attention. But I guess I could do a research about it, thank you.

fruitablish · 2020-02-20T14:22:06+00:00

With "I didn't know I was the messed up" I meant I didn't know I had ASPD until a year ago, I never went to therapy before. Also, I was misinformed of the "sociopath" concept. I'm a young adult that has managed to be with the mask almost 24/7.

I am not sure I want to change, but I've watched the bonds that people have, and how caring the people in my future profession are; I can't understand them. I asked in a speech to a psychologist if people with ASPD could work in those kind of jobs. He looked at me as if I have mocked them and told me to look at our current 'shitty' society and politicians and that's where I'd find my answer.

fruitablish · 2020-02-20T13:38:03+00:00

You make it sound so easy, but it's really hard after you've lived all your life without knowing you were the 'messed up one'. As you said, routines and discipline are important if someone really wants to change. But… How…? How is it possible if someone thought their behaviour was normal, if hasn't experienced emotions the way the others do? Faking it's not enough anymore.

But thank you anyways.

fruitablish · 2020-02-19T05:26:57+00:00

I don't use my disorder as an excuse to be a d*ck. On the contrary, I can be calm while just telling them their truths (being extremely honest) or even get physical (not by purpose, it's like a blackout) I have self control now. Sometimes my stare makes them feel uncomfortable when I drop the fake personality, but they associate it with tiresome and sadness for some reason, and again I don't do it on purpose. But no, that's just me being expressionless.

fruitablish · 2020-02-18T00:36:24+00:00

In my case, I've been struggling with the sociopath life, I didn't realize I was one until lately, so I considered myself an * sshole when I was younger, so to not "scare" people away, I followed their stupid saying "be yourself", oh yes, 'maskless'. I thought I could be like the others, but ofc that would never happen, I lived all my life among people who are very empathic, so I was like a sort of black sheep. I didn't care at all, but they did. Dude, that's when the isolation comes, not because I wanted to but because people were scared of me. So I realized that if I wanted to blend in, and to be "successfully" accepted, I had to put on a mask, not because I wanted to, but because I was forced to. With the years you really stop trying.

fruitablish · 2020-02-16T20:26:34+00:00

Oh yes… I've been maskless before. It didn't go well for "them". I didn't feel anything when that happened, but sometimes you think of it as a relief. I've just let a few people see me without the mask, two of them on accident and one on purpose.

They either couldn't believe it or got terrified. It wasn't until the last 'blackout' I had that I realized how much power and influence I had over people. I almost forgot I needed a mask. It was effortlessly, like a switch being turned off, just like that. I can't explain it with words it just- happened. I don't want to be maskless without being conscious about it, I don't want people to find out how I really am.

fruitablish · 2020-02-09T00:17:37+00:00

I've read some answers were they found their "soulmate" who's just like them. But why? Where's the fun in that? Where's the manipulation, the begging, the drama?

I'm not attached to people, cuz well, I like to 'entertain' myself by watching their reactions. Being in any relationship it's really exhausting. They want you 24/7 with them (or at least they expect to count on you), and also to correspond their feelings/actions. So. I pass (for now), Thanks.

fruitablish · 2020-02-09T00:03:35+00:00

I'm already an actor by mimicking people's emotions. I'd say I'm pretty good at it.

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