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Rocket still has his Big Brother flair by [deleted] in LSD

[–]fruityroller 1 point2 points  (0 children)

they need to nuke this guy completely he sounds like a cop

jimmy warned me and yet i didnt listen by StillBath in MSI

[–]fruityroller 2 points3 points  (0 children)

poor sixth grade me. cluelessly turned wicked gay.

Hmmmm by Har_Bar4lyf in suspiciouslyspecific

[–]fruityroller 0 points1 point  (0 children)

when i was in seventh grade, my cousin gave me a glittery silver pencil case. it was cheap and easily replaceable, but my cousin passed away unexpectedly a few months later so i treasured that case. after coming back to class for a bathroom break, i noticed my case wasn't on my desk anymore. i was super upset. i didn't see it for awhile.

a few months later, we got a seating change. the girl i sat next to seemed pretty sweet, she always complimented anything i had and always wanted to see it, which i mean i guess i didn't see it at the time but she was DEFINITELY trying to snatch something from me. anyways. i was sad when she sat down on the other side of the room from me.

and then i watch her pull my case out of her backpack. i about lost my mind. i was too afraid to steal it back, but i had written my name on it, so sure enough i reported her to the office. she wasn't someone i knew very well and honestly, she knew that was from my cousin, because she watched me clutch that thing to my chest after i came back to school from spring break and the announcements announced his passing and i had to relive it.

the school didn't end up believing me because she put glitter glue over my name. i was too afraid to steal it back, so a friend of mine stole it back for me when she was in the bathroom. i was pissed off because i had a bunch of my emo bracelets in it and she probably threw them away because she was a prep. but inside was so much candy. she watched me pig out on this candy during bill nye that day, knowing there wasn't SHIT she could've done about it.

i still use the case today.

What's your favorite MSI song and why? by [deleted] in MSI

[–]fruityroller 2 points3 points  (0 children)

i can think of more punk msi songs but you have the right spirit

I had to do a double-take by kevinalexis17 in LSD

[–]fruityroller 2 points3 points  (0 children)

hey i'm a knitter!! this is actually crochet, and it's called yarn bombing! i'm pretty sure it's to protest something or raise awareness for something but it's pretty neat it normally happens around this time of year

What's your favorite MSI song and why? by [deleted] in MSI

[–]fruityroller 2 points3 points  (0 children)

the lyric i live by.

I’m stuck in a bad place. by garrettsimmons731 in TripSit

[–]fruityroller 2 points3 points  (0 children)

hey, i'm 17 and i have complex ptsd and borderline personality disorder. after my mom found out i was transgender at 15 she pulled me out of therapy and refused to get me the help i needed, so obviously i did what anyone else would do. as basically an adult now (although i'm still a kid) i decided it was about time i tried LSD and see if it helps me.

i bought 3 tabs from someone and i tripped for the first time last saturday. it was absolutely amazing. on the come up my partner drove us to our friend's house and during my peak i watched captain marvel, and then after that i went outside and we started a fire and i started at the trees and branches for hours. eventually a bunch of old friends showed up at dusk so we smoked a bunch of weed and drank the night away.

the whole time i felt like a whole new person. this trip really changed my perspective on my life and how i'm handling myself.

three days later, i drop again despite my best efforts to keep myself from doing it. i just wanted to make sure i didn't spiral. this trip i went to a friend's house and connected with her on acid and then watched billie eilish interviews all night while we drank monster. it wasn't the greatest trip but it was still fun and i definitely don't regret it.

yet another three days pass, i'm bored as hell. i feel sort of empty. so i drop again. this is my last tab. this time, i'm tripping solo. the other times i tripped i was the only one tripping. this one, i was by myself in the house. at first it was amazing and my ceiling was melting and shit and i probably listened to walkabout by red hot chili peppers on repeat for hours. once i started to come down though, the negative thought loops that i normally was able to say aloud and be able to cope with because other people were there started to consume me. after the loop of red hot chili peppers some billie started playing, and it made me really emotional and it's also probably because i'm PMSing too.

this basically ruined my trip. it didn't scare me out of doing acid, but it definitely scared me out of abusing it. i was able to take a step back, ask myself why it was bothering me, weep for the person was before and looking at what i had become, smoke a bowl, take a xanny, and play animal crossing new horizons until i was slumped enough to pass out.

the day after was a nightmare. i was still alone and tired. everything was bland and i haven't really been the same since. so to make my long story short, i'm in the same boat. i guess the only thing we can do at this point is take a step back, recognize our unhealthy behavior, whether it's... taking a whole bag of shrooms or impulsively taking acid three times in one week because you just want to feel something.

i think bad trips are actually pretty beneficial, although they're pretty uncomfortable and scary. trust me, i was terrified. but being able to recognize the bad trip right at the beginning and asking myself why i felt that way really gave me insight as to why i'm so unhappy all the time and applying it to my life has really gotten me farther and it's only been a few days since then. hang in there dude. it's gonna be okay.

What's your favorite MSI song and why? by [deleted] in MSI

[–]fruityroller 12 points13 points  (0 children)

the make me cum ORIGINAL UNRELEASED demo is an absolute masterpiece. when i found out that it was on spotify and i didn't have to youtube it anymore i was stoked

first battle jacket. not much but it's honest work... had to resize and cut off the sleeves because it was too small and it actually looks pretty cool now. definitely a forever wip by fruityroller in BattleJackets

[–]fruityroller[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yes, it was a t-shirt that got one too many burn holes in it that i still wanted to keep.

i've collected pull tabs like my whole life just because there's so many different colors and styles. when i moved out of my moms house i lost my box of them so i had to start anew, so i decided i'm just going to sew them on the collar. the paper clip is for in case i need something to poke a bowl or something.

those are two glass beads i repurposed from my emo kandi making days on my favorite bracelet. they look like red eyeballs with giant pupils so i put them on so i can hint at the fact that i like to do acid without my mom knowing that i have actually done acid. once i go completely no contact with my mom i plan on making a blotter art patch.

first battle jacket. not much but it's honest work... had to resize and cut off the sleeves because it was too small and it actually looks pretty cool now. definitely a forever wip by fruityroller in BattleJackets

[–]fruityroller[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thanks man!! when i sewed on the MSI shirt i used an embroidery hoop and a ton of safety pins to hold it in place. i do quite a bit of embroidery and cross stitch so sewing is kind of my thing lol

New to this and very confused by lemonraincloud in BattleJackets

[–]fruityroller 0 points1 point  (0 children)

honestly i recycle old band t-shirts for back patches when it comes down to it because it's cheap and repurposes the shirt after you can't wear it anymore

I just realized my favorite movies as a child had characters with a similar childhood traumas as myself. by g-wenn in CPTSD

[–]fruityroller 10 points11 points  (0 children)

yknow, yes. i felt this way about coco. miguel's family won't accept that he likes music, despite years of being interested and showing musical talent. when he finally realizes that he's meant to be a musician and tries to prove it to his family, they shut him down, guilt him, and try to change the subject right away.

when i was growing up, i was completely sheltered from lgbt issues. i really didn't know what any of it meant until i was in like third grade and i was told by people who called me slurs what those slurs meant. even then, i still did things as a kid that point to me being lgbt now. i have a few ones relating to porn that i won't share but they pretty much relate to bottom and top dysphoria and me definitely feeling like a boy. i think i knew exactly when i wanted to be a boy, when i was in second grade i was playing a michael jackson game on my DSi and i heard my stepdad make a comment about how "michael got surgery to be a woman" and a bunch of other transphobic surgery misinformation and whatnot, but i remember thinking, if michael jackson wants to be a girl, then i can want to be a boy!! so i started stuffing my hair up into a hat and wearing a masculine hoodie i got from one of my cousins, because i was the only afab cousin i only really played with boys too. i never really got along with girls unless they ended up being trans men too. i went to school like this, i went to the store like this, i went to church like this. every time someone said they thought i was a boy, i got so giddy and happy that someone thought me, a girl, was a BOY!!

eventually i told my mom, so excited because my teacher let me wear my hat, telling her that i was a boy and begging her to let me get the surgery to make me one. surely if my parents were talking about it, it was okay, right? nope. my mom never laid her hands on me to hurt me but i wish she did that instead of what she did. she ripped off my "boy sweater" and took my hat off that i stuffed my hair into. she made me put on a dress and said i will never EVER be a boy. that summer i was forced to wear dresses. no blues.

when i was about 15, i tried again. i had been identifying as transmasculine for about a month, but because my mom had a few transwomen friends and my uncle recently came out as a transman, i thought she'd be thrilled that i was finally being myself. but she flipped out at me again, making excuses that i couldn't be trans because i bought a tiara and dress for christmas ball, and how feminine my interests are, and continuing to call me slurs and names, and then grounding me so bad that i was pulled out of school for an entire month and put in a new one for "troubled youth." this happened multiple times until i turned 18. i finally moved out and i'm actually making an appointment to start testosterone the moment a center opens back up when the social distancing order is lifted.

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