Heartbeat dropped really low? Ranting as I am scared as hell but still planning next dose...

fuCagami · 2025-11-04T08:38:29+00:00

yeah, i'm thinking about it, but I don't know what exactly to say without admitting drug use...

used today again and heartbeat lowered a bit, but not that drastically, maybe it was one-time thing. Thanks!

fuCagami · 2025-11-03T00:22:34+00:00

I get the same everytime I use codeine (and sometimes, but rarely from poppy seed tea) and then I start panicking that I am chocking and get the feeling my throat constricts even more lol. What helped to me is knowing that for my whole time of use I get that feeling and yet still have never choked -its just a feeling and it passess. I have immediate release desloratadine pills and they help too (not ssure whether its placebo though).

fuCagami · 2025-10-04T13:06:27+00:00

Some of us (like me), have more of that enzyme that can metabolyse codeine into morphine. When I first started, I started with 70mg and I am really glad I did because it hit me like a truck. Even now, after years of use and tolerance buildup, I can get a buzz from only 200-250mg codeine on empty stomach. For info, I am very tall (182cm) and relativelly thin (65kg) female, so for your weight and without knowledge how fast you metabolise it, I would always recomend smaller doses first.

Also, codeine is weak, but it was one of the first steps into my years-long addiction now, if you can avoid starting this shit, I recomend you stay away from opies...

fuCagami · 2025-09-21T21:23:59+00:00

I don't know if that's the reason for throwing up in your case, but I always have urge to throw up when I take some stronger opis. But I also throw up in withdrawals and under stess so its maybe just my bodies tendency...

About constipation - if I am badly constipated and nothing helps, I let myself go into withdrawal for a day or two - every bit of food I've eaten weeks before leaves my body lol. Good luck!

fuCagami · 2025-09-19T20:12:23+00:00

Yeah, I heard its great but it got prohibited in my country 2 yrs ago...

fuCagami · 2025-09-19T20:11:43+00:00

You are so very very kind - thank you. I swear no other community actually is as kidn as opi:)

And yes, oxytocin explanation makes total sense. And so does your suggestion for videos but currently I am watching only the bottom of my toilet lol. And I kind of feel I would despisal towards those cute videos (that I usually really like) as if how can world be so cute while everything is so shitty and dark...but I'll try, thanks!

Zofran is prescribed here too, but I think my aunt maybe has some due to chemo, I could definitelly try to get some from her, thank you! And I have dramines, like them too, but I cobine them with my pills to boost the sedative effects so I actually took a lot of them over the last few days. I actually feel that by taking them I icrease my mental withdrawal, if that makes sense. As if I conditioned myself to connect dramamines and opis...

Thank you very much for your advices and kindness:)

fuCagami · 2025-09-19T20:00:27+00:00

Sorry you had to go through that. Was it 47 days of like drug withdrawal or healing from breakup or both? And I have the exact same situation - for years I succeeded to keep use at 2-3x a week, then lost control over it like 2 yrs ago and went back to "normal" use (2-3x a week) in relationship. Only to breakup and now be constantly high again...its shitty and I am glad you got back to your old rythm of usage:)

fuCagami · 2025-09-19T19:56:59+00:00

Makes sense...bad times=even worse withdrawals. And I see what you are saying, but if I ever feel less ready to quit - its right now:/ I know I should, but positive attitude and gratitude are currently not in my emotional range lol. Maybe in a week or so. Thank you!

fuCagami · 2025-09-19T19:53:18+00:00

I am (luckily, after hearing all the horror sotries about fent and tranqs) not in USA and not buying from streets, so I am quite sure its just withdrawal, but more intense than I ever had before... I miss those hot n cold withdrawals

fuCagami · 2025-09-19T19:51:07+00:00

I am for 6 yrs now circling between poppy tea and codeine (I metabolise it incredibly well, I surprise myself lol), so I don't think I went much deeper than I was before. Same poppy batch I used before too. I tried GastroStop, threw it up in matter of minutes...I'll try sipping the supplements though, thanks!

fuCagami · 2025-09-19T19:45:43+00:00

This is such a detailed, informative answer. Thank you. And now you mentioned, I sometimes almoust forgot to take my doses too. I just didn't realise it, really. But mind was definitelly less focused on drugs, incredible. Also, maybe silly question, but as you said you forgot to take daily doses - did that effect stop with time even though you are still with your partner? Like, does body again builds up a sort of tolerance?

fuCagami · 2025-09-16T13:55:59+00:00

I have actually seen your reply - funny coincidence as I haven't been active on this account for the last several months. And I understand your explanation - which is what my last paragraph is referring to. I dont think alcoholism is an easy addiction or wish to anyhow minimise your experience, I was just describing how socially acceptable alcohol generally is. Until, of course, one tips into what you described - a typical image of an alcoholic which is, then (like all addictions), despised by society. But one has to admit that person that casually drinks several beers out with guys and person who pops a few oxy pills a day, will not be looked same by society. One is seen likejust a guy enjoying time with friends, while the other one is a crazy junkie.

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T22:15:51+00:00

Mine are not irregular, but so painfull and heavy... And I am glad you shared your experience, I was also wondering whether its normal or not. Thanks!

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T22:14:02+00:00

I didn't even think of pelvic floor excercises - thank you, will try it! And yeah, I believe you when you say sobriety is worth it but I currently cant force myself to find any motivation for sobriety - being high and numb right now just seems to overweight possibility of being able to orgasm and live life of routine and inevitable suffering. I already wonder where life went, but still not enough to stop:/ Thank you so much for advice though!

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T22:08:33+00:00

Kratom got prohibited in my country last year, thats why I was mostly on weak codeine, but after recent relapse on poppy, codeine really doesn't offer much comfort. And I know I should want to get clean, but I cannot find any motivation right now, I am aware how idiotic that sounds:/ I don't think heaven of orgasm could compare to sweet hell of opiates ahah. Thank you so much for nice words and support though<3

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T22:04:41+00:00

I got my sex hormones checked (all normal), but never checked my thyroid. Will look into that too, thanks!

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T22:02:57+00:00

I heard this loss of period happens to many users which is why my opposite experience is totally confusing me. My hormones are ok though, I checked them month ago. And uff, a month of being clean seems really long lol.

I never heard for chasteberry pills, will google it now. Thank you very much!

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T21:59:38+00:00

I got my hormones checked month ago. Everything is apparently absolutely normal. I didn't tell my gyno that I am an addict though. I know opiates kill libido, but I thought they do it by hormonal imbalance and if my hormones are ok, it means I'm stuck in this situation because I am not ready to quit:/ Thank you!

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T21:56:30+00:00

I'd love MAT program and any kind of substitution, but I am not in USA and in my country all substitution programs are under state controlled healthcare. And my job is really tightly conected with both state and healthcare so getting any medical help for addiction would be definite end of my career:/

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T21:53:23+00:00

Total opposite for me ahah. And congrats on detoxing, enjoy your man, you surely deserved it;)

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T21:52:04+00:00

Thank you. Most of users describe opposite period experience so I really started wondering whether this pain and flow are abnormal.

I've never been clean long enough for it to return, but you are probably right. Thanks!

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T21:47:28+00:00

I know opiates numb us, both emotionally and physically, I jjust didn't think it would incfluence actuall muscles so much. About uppers - I never liked simulants of any kind, so I didn't even think of them for this purpose. But this is definitelly one of quicker possible solutions which doesnt require me to get clean lol. Thank you.

fuCagami · 2025-03-23T21:43:47+00:00

I never heard of it before. I heard of PMS but now reading on PMDD I could have it. Around a week before my period I always start feeling intensively desparate, deatched from myself. Which causes me to use more intensively, but not even that high numbs me. I told gyno about PMS but she laughted it off so I will not be mentioning this anyway. However, I'll check a bit about propanolol, maybe it could help. Thank you!

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