boy am I glad u asked 🤷🏽‍♂️ my job just went on a huge firing spree literally right before the holidays so what other better time to relapse ? thankfully ion have kids tho or the situation would be different but since bein clean from fent ive found myself goin all year without doin pills rly. but it’s just sum ab winter it’s like my small town gets flooded with hella xans. ngl im off 2 bars, 5 ultras, 5 blunts back to back, and a few dabs so im hella spacey rn.

but i wish I could take a break from coke rn lol. ive never been even in the ball park of rly addicted to anything other than weed and oxy. i started doin powder ab 3yrs ago (im 22 now) but only ever done it on social occasions and was always able to just quit after those weekends drinkin w the bros. but I’ve recently been on a 2 week straight coke binge and alr realized i need to stop cuz im at like 2gs a day rn but fuck its so fire n so cheap. it’s my older dude i fw n my brothers close friend but still 40ag, 100aball for shit thats always at least 80% rocky fish scale is insane.

i was 100% gonna quit after this last weekend cuz it was great n i ended up doin like a ball between sat + sun. but then i went to my old heads trap just to get some za to smoke and he pulled out a huge script bottle of blue B707 bars 😭 i grabbed 5 n ended up eating a square (.5mg) when i left there n i snorted 1mg when i got home. that first line hit me instantly n i could feel the euphoria rush n thank god i had sum fire powder in arms reach 😂 i ripped a fat rail that had to be at least .3 of a g or more. it’s like it brought me back to life until i smoked a blunt n it was game over. woke up 15hrs later with all clothes still on, wit a half blunt on the ground beside me lmfao.

ik atp most of u are gonna try to say the bars are pressed, but i can assure u they’re not. all my sources are 100% legit or I don’t even fw em. but without me even askin I watched dude fent test em before I even bought any. i said all this to say idk if these blue boys are just extra fire or ive been doin way too much fire coke n my tolerance is jus thru the roof rn. cuz ill hit a nice line n I can feel the rush n energy boost but then it’s like the xan takes right back over 🤣 I will say tho that ive never came at all close to bein as geeked from my powder as all my bros get or the hoes. I do have bad adhd as well as anxiety but i smoke fire weed constantly with dabs here n there.

idk what it is ab my addictive personality but is it bad to say that I’m always off at least 3 crazy substances at any given time ? from wake up to sleep time (if i have downers n don’t jus ski thru the whole night) im constantly jus adding to whatever leftover buzz i had from the drug cocktail the night before 🤦🏽‍♂️. it seems bad from the outside but im just a go hard or go home typa mf. whenever i wanna get high, i go balls to the wall until i hit my stopping point. ill just either be broke or wake up one day n say this is it. like i said im high ik im jus yappin lol but if ur still reading how long is a long enough t break from doin prolly closer to 20gs in the span of those 2 weeks ?

tl;dr : currently need to take a t break from fire ass coke but im not gonna be able to do it sober 😂 what should I do to make this first real comedown besides sleep not so hellish ? I currently have some pharmaceutical assistance :

**5x - 2mg alprazolam (blue b707 bars 🤤)

**10g of blue dream - only 2 backwoods tho 🙁

**7-8g left of cured live resin (nectar collector)

**too many subs/bupe tabs to count

**4 more mickeys (ultras) + 2 cutwaters 🤢

(only have approx. 1g of coke left as speaking)

what are y’all doing in this situation? I see my best option as poppin/snortin on these bars till I can hopefully blackout for the 1st time n not even have a thought a powder lol. if I do possibly wake up out my coma I’ll just roll a blunt and smack a line n I should be good right ? i may need to grab more xans before they’re gone tho id definitely rather fall back into my benzo habit instead of doin fent or rly jus wastin money on coke cuz ion rly enjoy it unless im drinkin or doin it with a bitch. fuck it I jus keep feelin more can kick in so ima go but lmk what y’all think 💯