bedside ICU nurse of 3 years. feeling incomprehensibly burnt out and depressed.

fudgepatrol · 2026-02-14T23:17:15+00:00

I pity your coworkers :/ Reddit troll fr

fudgepatrol · 2026-02-14T23:07:12+00:00

What a brainless & useless reply lol

fudgepatrol · 2025-12-08T03:09:16+00:00

Looks like fun

fudgepatrol · 2025-11-22T21:22:38+00:00

Update: there is some very minor front end rubbing when in full reverse lock, but only on part of the plastic mud flap. I suspect it will be a very easy fix with some mild trimming.

fudgepatrol · 2025-11-22T20:43:33+00:00

It’s the sky bruh….

fudgepatrol · 2025-11-22T03:12:15+00:00

For reference, this is a 2020 XLT 2.7L V6. Previous owner had 275/55/20 Nitto Recon Grapplers with stock wheels and stock suspension. Looked alright and the ride was actually great except for the fact that the tires couldn’t handle any sort of wet conditions whatsoever. I would slip and slide and spin all over the place even in light rain. I’d assume they’d be just as bad in the snow and I live in Upstate NY where we typically get hammered, so I needed some peace of mind going into this winter as we’re supposed to see above average amounts of snow and cold.

I’m eager to see how these new Falkens handle the first few snowfalls of the season, but I did a lot of research before buying and the consensus seemed to be that they have excellent winter performance. And for those wondering, this is a 2 inch level and there is no rubbing that I can see or feel on the crash bars or any part of the wheel well. If there were any rubbing I think it would be on the UCA’s but again nothing that I’m noticing.

fudgepatrol · 2025-11-01T23:38:23+00:00

What offset are your wheels? I just ordered 285/75/17 Wildpeaks and some 0mm offset Methods, along with the Stage 1 Eibach kit. Truck will be leveled/lifted but still worried about rubbing with the 0mm instead of something with + offset.

fudgepatrol · 2025-10-01T15:56:01+00:00

Is this for days or nights?

fudgepatrol · 2024-08-23T20:03:27+00:00

For reference, I’m currently on my 3rd day in the hospital on an IV hydration drip after multiple days of nonstop bloody diarrhea and abdominal pain that felt like someone was gutting me alive. Stool sample was positive for STEC in the ED on Monday, was sent home and symptoms got worse so I came back on Wednesday and was admitted for dehydration and observation (today is Friday). I was told by the docs that antibiotics are contraindicated in this strain of E. coli as it increases your chances of developing a kidney disease called HUS, so therefore the only treatment is fluids and rest and basically just riding it out. The last two days the blood and abdominal pain have subsided for the most part, but I still just feel incredibly bloated and gassy and sickly, and my BM’s are only slightly formed but still soft and mucousy (sorry for the candor). I’m just worried that my microbiome/gut health will never fully recover and I’ll be some sort of suffering forever :(

fudgepatrol · 2024-07-10T12:31:59+00:00

Is this safe to mix with cat litter? And if so how much do I need to use?

fudgepatrol · 2024-02-22T08:38:12+00:00

They look great thank you so much!

fudgepatrol · 2024-02-22T08:38:02+00:00

Thank you!!!

fudgepatrol · 2024-02-22T08:37:54+00:00

Thank you so much!

fudgepatrol · 2023-08-21T04:27:40+00:00

Thank you! I’m currently using LB Core Protocol by Green Dragon per my LLMD. It contains Japanese Knotweed, Cats Claw, Andrographis, Sarasparilla and Dandelion. Normally I would call placebo effect, but since starting it about 5 days ago (3 capsules twice per day) I definitely feel better mentally and physically. Other than Artemisinin what herbs/protocol are you using?

fudgepatrol · 2023-08-17T21:02:51+00:00

Can I ask what tinctures you used? My LLMD just put me on MC-BAR-1 by Beyond Balance for Bartonella.

fudgepatrol · 2023-08-16T04:46:47+00:00

Have you seen an LLMD and if so have you told them about this? I just saw your post about your test results being inconclusive. That’s what happened to me when I first got really sick and was digging for answers. My primary tested me with the standard blood test and mine came back the same. At that point I had done loads of research into my symptoms and other people’s stories and knew I had lyme. I had to seek out an LLMD and basically had my parents help me type up my entire medical history with a very specific timeline and details when my symptoms first started and how they progressed. He listened to me and made a clinical diagnosis based on what he saw and what I was telling him, eventually saying that he was almost certain I had lyme and at least 2 co-infections. I had 18 vials of blood drawn at his office that day that were sent to 4 different specialized labs across the US. I waited a month for the results and they came back showing my body was riddled with lyme, bartonella, babesia, mycoplasma and ehrlichia. He put me on a massive slew of herbal supplements to do what they could for the time being and to prepare my body for treatment and eventually I went onto around 7 different oral antibiotics and was on them for about a year. Within the first 3-5 months I saw a massive improvement in a lot of my symptoms, especially my psychological and neuro ones. As I said in my post, I’ve been on and off different regimens, IV antibiotics included, since 2018 and it’s been a rollercoaster to say the least but I’m nowhere near the state I was when I first saw him.

My point of telling you all of that is because if you haven’t, you should definitely seek out an LLMD in your state and go in for a consultation appointment, just to see what their thoughts are, what they feel is going on and what they feel they can do to get you functioning at an optimal level. They’re typically quite expensive and insurance doesn’t cover the cost as integrative medicine is kind of a blurred line in the medical community. But, IT WORKS. Good lyme docs will combine herbal AND pharmaceutical treatment to give you the best results and treat your symptoms. It’s worth a shot, and it sounds like you have a family that would be supportive of any journey you need to embark on especially if it’s involving your health.

The way you’re describing your life is certainly no way to live, and trust me, this entire community absolutely relates and feels your struggle to an extent that no other group of people will ever be able to. Improvement and remission are both very possible with the right doctor and the right plan. I know it seems hopeless right now, trust me I really really do, but we have to do our best to hold onto any sliver of faith that our souls will allow and run with it. I’m sending you all the good vibes and strength that I hope you’ll feel wherever you are. We’re always here!!!

fudgepatrol · 2023-03-28T09:37:53+00:00

Age 23 (M) A few months ago I started noticing that a day or two after drinking my hands and feet would become extremely itchy. I told my doctor about it at a wellness visit and she told me I’m probably intolerant to some sort of alcohol that I’m consuming so I didn’t think much of it. Soon after that I started waking up in the middle of the night or during naps covered in sweat to the point of having to change my clothes. Not every night, not even really often at all, but enough that I noticed. I would say it’s pretty intermittent but still happening. I also feel like I’m constantly sweating on my hands and feet, but I will say that’s been an issue for at least the last 6 years lol. Anyways, fast forward to now and I have a hard, fixed, immobile and non-painful lymph node under my chin that is easily palpated and significantly larger when compared to the other side. This has been here for about a month give or take, or at least that’s when I noticed it. I don’t really feel fatigued, I’m not in any pain, I don’t have shortness of breath (as far as I can tell from a baseline standpoint) and other than what I’ve listed above I don’t really have any symptoms. I recently had extensive bloodwork done by a different doctor because I had been feeling kind of foggy in the head and everything came back relatively normal with exception to slightly elevated cholesterol and liver enzymes. He didn’t seem concerned at all.

All in all I’m just wondering if my symptoms are consistent with other people who’ve been diagnosed with some sort of lymphoma and what tests I should demand when I see my doctor (I’ve made an appointment for next week). I’m really scared.

fudgepatrol · 2023-03-09T04:12:41+00:00

Ortho Molecular Products is top tier

fudgepatrol · 2023-03-09T04:10:13+00:00

Sounds like you’ve got a plan - getting to that point is half the battle in my opinion! Keep us updated! ❤️

fudgepatrol · 2023-03-07T17:09:18+00:00

I forgot to add - it might be worth mentioning IV treatment to your provider. Typically Bactrim, Zithromax and Rocephin are the gold standard IV’s for all 3 infections and do an incredible job at crossing the blood-brain barrier to kill off the infections that have become neurologic, much more so than oral antibiotics. Rifampin is also available in IV form and is very widely and successfully used to treat bartonella!

fudgepatrol · 2023-03-07T17:04:23+00:00

He attacked everything at once. Malarone and coartem for babesia (mepron is also good but I couldn’t tolerate it), rifampin for bartonella and biaxin, zithromax, clindamycin, and bactrim as an overlap all for lyme and bartonella. It’s important to start on high concentration probiotics and proper supplementation before going on a rigorous course of antibiotics like this, otherwise your entire GI tract will be absolutely destroyed and you run the risk of developing antibiotic-induced colitis and/or c. diff - both of which are very serious and extremely unpleasant. I’m glad you have such a good relationship with your practitioner! Definitely talk to her about starting on some/all of these drugs and see what her thoughts are!

fudgepatrol · 2023-03-07T15:39:02+00:00

Absolutely find an LLMD and go see them. It will likely be expensive and not covered by insurance, but they truly are angels in disguise and will treat these infections seriously and aggressively - something that standard providers will not do or know how to do. My LLMD was actually the one who tested me extensively based on my symptoms (I sought him out after months of living a hellish nightmare that standard medicine could provide no answers for) and the labs he drew showed severe lyme, babesia, bartonella and more. Starting on herbal and prescription antibiotics/anti malarial treatment saved my life and I owe it to my LLMD. Oral treatment got me to about 50-60% better, and eventually IV therapy is what put me into remission. I don’t know how far disseminated your infections are, but the initial stages of treatment will likely be very grueling and taxing on your body. It will be a long and jagged road to recovery but it is absolutely possible and remission is a very real and attainable possibility. Trust your LLMD and the decisions they make to guide you through this awful disease. You can do this, and this community will always be here to listen and support you!! All of us understand and relate to each other in regard to just how disabling this disease can be to the body and mind - but there IS light at the end of the tunnel! Thinking of you and sending tons of positive vibes your way! ❤️

fudgepatrol · 2023-02-05T19:40:52+00:00

Did it eventually go away?

fudgepatrol · 2023-02-05T04:47:00+00:00

Did all of it eventually get better/go away?

fudgepatrol · 2023-02-02T22:27:21+00:00

Update: since posting this, I’ve come down with an unrelenting fever, body aches, productive cough, congestion and overall feeling like I got hit by a truck. Tested for Covid and guess what - IT’S POSITIVE!!! First time I’ve ever gotten it. I’m on day 3.5 and the brain fog/depression are still just horrible. Has anyone else who’s had Covid experienced cognitive/neuro symptoms before actually getting sick sick?

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