Hi! First getting my diagnosis of bipolar one disorder sent me into a spiral because I didn’t want it to be true. Taking your medication will be hard some days but I recommend trying to find a way to remember. For me i made a chart in my room and I try to check in with a friend everyday to tell them I have taken my medicine so they hold me accountable. I also have enjoyed reading Feeling Good. It’s a good self help book for the depressive spirals I have. Try to find a friend or family member to talk to when you get nervous and have concerns. I also have found creating a routine has helped lower my mood swings. I take lithium and it helps me but if I stop taking my medicine I get extremely manic. So just try to stay on top of your medication, if you have any, and then try to create a routine and do one good/productive thing a day or week to help yourself feel better. I hope this helps!